You Can't Marry Him

Chapter Nine

The next day Sam and I take a long walk through the neighborhood, I could see Toby's unease at us going out alone together. Maybe he should be worried, if this goes the way I hope then Sam might be returning to New York with me before the end for the week. I buy her a Snickers bar which is her favorite, as I sip my Coca-Cola she offers me half of her bar and I politely refuse. Come to think of it this is the first time I've seen Sam eating properly since I got here. I hope she isn't on some stupid crash diet to fit into her wedding dress or trying to impress her stupid fiancé. She's got a gorgeous body, she's got an hourglass figure, her lips are so full and plump, I bet she is an amazing kisser and she's got a cute little ass that I keep fighting the urge to grab. I can't stop checking her out, having this time alone with her is great, I can be myself without worrying about Gene Wilder and his crew back home. I want to question her about her eating habits, but I stop myself as I don't want to get into an argument. Being in a situation like I was with my son and wife has left a lasting impact on me, I can't help it, I spent six months fighting with my wife, trying to get my son to eat properly and I failed every single time. It got to the point where I had to take him to a local church and feed him meat there just so that he was getting the nutrients that he needed. Life was hell during that period of time and if I could go back in time I would do things differently and my wife would still be alive. If I bring up the eating thing with Sam she would probably say that I'm just being paranoid because of Mason and Mina, so I go for a trip down memory lane instead. "Do you remember that time we pranked your Math tutor Mr Tucker? Pretending to be his girlfriend," I chuckle to myself thinking about the time when we were teenagers, me and Sam used to spend a lot of our summer holidays together playing pranks and participating in minor shoplifting. She laughs along with me too, "That was all your doing, you were a bad influence on me, Jude. Can you believe they actually broke up, I'm sure we had something to do with that." She smiles up at me as she adjusts the front of her maxi dress, I bet that would look good on my bedroom floor I think to myself cheekily. She makes me feel all nervous like I am a teenager again, crushing on my best friend. Now it is so much deeper than that, I love this woman and I want her to love me back. "So, what is yours and Toby's wedding song going to be?" I'm asking a question that I already know the answer to, Charlie opened his big mouth and told me, but I want to hear it from her. "It's called 'Perfect' by Ed Sheeran," she says with a gleeful look in her eye. It's one of the most cheesiest songs I have ever heard in my life, Toby was probably the one that suggested it. When Mina and I got married I sang her a song in Italian as she was originally from there and I wanted to do something special for her. She loved it and I remember looking into her eyes and feeling like the luckiest guy on the planet. I never imagined back then that things would change as quickly as they did. I really need to snap out of this, stop thinking of the past and concentrate on what's going on in front of me. "So, how did you know Toby was the one then?" I ask her, she looks up at me and responds, "I knew he was the one when I lost him. I spent an entire year not appreciating him and seeing him as a second option next to Philip Altman. Then when I broke it off with him and came to New York, I realized that he was the best thing that has ever happened to me. No one has ever treated me like he does, I'm not talking about his money or the house, I'm talking about how he treats me like I'm a woman. He's never raised his voice to me, never been verbally or psychically abusive. I can trust him with anything, he always listens to me and takes my feelings on board. He's just a great man, you should get to know him better, you'd like him," she says positively. I'm not interested in getting to know him, I think to myself. He is an arrogant rich buffoon, I'm sure I would have got on better with Philip Altman, he sounded a lot more down to earth than this guy. "Don't you ever think that if we lived closer to each other that we would have been childhood sweethearts?" I say it in a jokey way as I want to see her genuine reaction. She laughs and replies, "Jude, you're like my brother. I love you to pieces, but we could never be a couple. It would be too weird and anyway you're not attracted to me, how could you be when I'm...umm, never mind. I'm surprised you're not dating anyone at the moment, you should try E-Harmony," she says as she breezes ahead of me. She's probably too scared to leave Toby, he has become her safety blanket of security and she fears that she will have to go back to her life in London. Back to that dead end job and continue living in constant fear of running into that dick of an ex of hers, Ian. I wish I could tell her that there's a place for her in New York, we could start a new and happy life together, I would look after her as best as I could and she would never want for anything. She can't see it just yet, but I can, and there are a few more things that I have up my sleeve for her to realize it. It is the Stag and Hen do's tomorrow night and things are only just starting to get interesting.

When we get back home later on in the day I find Quinn by herself in the games room, she looks upset so I go over and try to console her. "What's up, Quinn?" She's got tears in her eyes and I actually feel quite sorry for her. "It's my ex, he's trying to say that I'm not a good mother to Olivia and that bringing her here to the wedding was selfish as it was meant to be his weekend with her. I feel like I can't do anything right in his eyes, I'm always trying to give him as much time with her as I can, but it's my sisters wedding, how can he begrudge me for taking her?" I do feel sorry for her, her ex Judd sounds like a bit of a dick, he is also Philip Altman's brother who is Sam's ex boyfriend, talk about keeping it in the family. "I'm sorry Quinn, I know having exes can be hard especially when there's kids involved, but at the same time you are lucky that Olivia still has her father. I wish I could say the same for Mason, he's going to grow up without his mother and one day I'm going to have to explain to him the reasons why." I can feel myself getting choked up so I walk towards the window and look out at the sea. She comes up behind me and places her hand on my shoulder, "Jude, I am so sorry. I can tell you this though your wife would be so proud of the father that you've become. I often see you on Facebook with him and he always looks so happy, that's the sign of a great parent." I turn to face her, what's she's just said has really touched me. I don't get many people complimenting me on my parenting skills, apart from Jason and Megan I don't have many friends. I run my hand through her hair and look into her big hazel eyes, she is beautiful. She reaches up to me and we kiss again, this time I do not hold back, I pull her body close to mine as she starts undoing my trousers. I'm so turned on by her and my dick is so hard, I can't wait to shove it down her throat. "Jude, I want to fuck you so badly and I have done since the moment you walked into this house," she says as she gets on her knees ready to suck me off. "Me too, babe," I say as I stroke her hair. "Guys, what's going on in here. Holy Shit! I'm so sorry, don't mind me," Sam has just burst into the room and she's seen us up against the pool table, she smirks and quickly exits the room embarrassed. "For fuck's sake, why does she have to be so nosy? Anyway, where were we?" Quinn tries to carry on and I push her off of me. "Sorry hun, I can't do this right now. I'll see you later on," I say as I do up my trousers and try to leave the room. "Jude, let's go to my bedroom, no one will disturb us there," it's almost like she's pleading with me and I don't want to upset her, but Sam disturbing us is a blessing in disguise. "This is all too much too soon for me, Quinn. I'm still mourning my wife and I need some proper time to heal from it," I say whilst turning on the water works, which I know will put her off me even further. "I'm sorry Jude, I do understand. At least it's got nothing to do with your attraction to me. You know I'll be here whenever you want me," she says whilst stroking my neck. "I'll see you later, Quinn," I say as I skuttle out of the room as quickly as I can.