1984
On the twins' sixteenth birthday Paul, Kaihlan, and I found out Sean was dating Essence. Paul trusted Sean but he was still a bit overprotective. We were all still great friends but ever since John died Sean blamed me and hated me. When they went to bed Makenna pecked my cheek and ran upstairs. I quit singing and took care of the kids by myself. I refused to remarry. I knew the kids wouldn't be able to hand that and I wouldn't either. When we visited John's grave we all sobbed. Sean refused to talk to me. I was hurt that my own son didn't love me. I walked to his room and opened the door. He was on his bed.
"Sean, honey, why do you hate me? What have I done?"I asked sitting next to him.
"Yer a stupid bit-"He started to say.
Someone walked in.
"Love, I'm sorry,"A man said.
He sounded familiar.
"Dad!"Sean yelled.
He wrapped his arm around the man. I looked up. John stood there. I wrapped my arms around him and kissed his lips. Makenna walked in. She was smiling and we all hugged.
"Daddy, why'd ya leave us?"Makenna asked.
"So ya could be safe. I had ta fake my death so you guys could live,"He replied.
The kids went to bed and John and I talked.
"I'm so sorry."
"I'm just happy you're hear."
He placed his lips onto mine.
"I visited the lads already."
I rested my head in his lap. We fell asleep together.
"Sing again?"
"I'm 41. To old,"I whispered.
"I'm 44. How do ya think I feel?"
"True,"I nodded.
"Why did Sean say that ta ya?"
"He was blaming me for you dying. He hates me."
"I'm here now and I will not let him talk to ya like that."
"Thank you."
We fell asleep in each others arms. I woke up to an empty bed. I started sobbing thinking last night was just a dream.
"Why're'ya crying, love?"John asked.
I sat up.
"John!"I wrapped my arms around him.
"Of course, doll. I was making breakfast. Come eat."
I grabbed his hand after I washed my face and we ate all together.
"I heard about how ya talk to yer mother,"John said to Sean.
"How?"
"Makenna,"John cocked an eyebrow.
"Makenna ya little shi-"Sean started to say.
"Sean Daniel Lennon,"John snapped.
"Sorry,"Sean looked down.
"No. Say that ta yer mother and yer sister. Not me."
"I am sorry mum and I'm sorry Makenna."
"Why'd ya blame yer mother for my "death"?"
"She was with ya. She could've taken the bullet. She wanted ta live and let you die."
"Sean, we had no clue that we were gonna be shot at,"John said.
"Okay,"Sean nodded taking a bite of his pancakes.
"Daddy, I'm glad this isn't a dream. I woke up today crying because I thought you were fake,"Makenna admitted.
"I did too sweetheart,"I squeezed her hand.
"I have ta go or Essence will have a fit,"Sean said grabbing his car keys.
"Love ya!"John and I yelled.
He groaned and left.
"Makenna, you can go hang out with a friend if ya want,"John said.
Makenna nodded and grabbed her car keys. Makenna and Essence had started drifting apart ever since Essence started seeing Sean. At the time we didn't know yet.
"Love, I love ya so much,"John whispered.
He grabbed my and and carried me upstairs.
"It was so hard sleeping alone,"I murmured.
"I know, I know. I'm sorry doll."
I pressed my lips to his and wrapped my arms around his neck.
"I love you too,"I said back to him.
I rested my head on his chest as soon as got in bed. I closed my eyes and fell asleep in his arms.
