You don't deserve the title of "mom." Absent from my life for 15 years strong.
You could never pick up the phone. All you could ever do was tell me lies to justify the way you left me alone.
I told you something bad happened to me and you just assumed that I was lying.
But I was THREE! Three years old, begging you, my MOM for some help,
But no.. you neglected your first born, and at the time, only daughter.
Seeing you today brought back all the memories and the pain
It reminded me of how I haven't seen my siblings in a whole decade.
Yes, I'm growing up and turning out great, but that doesn't make all the years of trauma go away.
It doesn't take the insecurity, the trust issues, and the abandonment issues away.
It INFURIATES me that I have to look in the mirror everyday and see YOUR face.
To see the woman who was too coward to own up to her mistakes,
Too coward to even face me.
You might be the one who carried me,
But you will NEVER be my mother.
In my eyes, you will always be nothing more than a surrogate!
