Seducing My Boss

Chapter 40

I woke up from my nap and found Zayne laying between my legs, his hand was resting on the side of my belly and he was laying his head on my belly. I didn't even hear him come in, i don't know when he got in from work. It's been a week since my mother committed suicide right in front of me, i haven't been going into work, and i haven't left this room.

We're still at his parent's house, i can't even imagine going back inside that house. I can't live there knowing what happened in that living room, i can't have happy moments there when i walk into the room and that's all i see..

I'm so angry at my mother. How the hell can she do something like that?! It just goes to show how selfish and manipulative that woman was. She took away my home, she made it where i couldn't have good memories there anymore. It's like that was her final way of hurting me. She killed herself in my home in front of me so that that is what i will always remember.

Zayne started stirring against me, i looked down to see him looking up at me with so much concern in his eyes. It made me feel guilty for shutting him out the way i have.

"You okay?" He asked softly, his voice raspy from sleep.

"I will be.." I replied just as softly.

"Babe...maybe you should go see a therapist? It's been a week and you haven't wanted to leave this room, you haven't wanted to see anyone. " He didn't even try to hide the concern in his voice.

"I don't need a therapist, Zayne...i just need to be left alone so i can deal with this on my own in my own way. I'm not going back to that house..." I said changing the subject. I don't need a therapist, i can get through this on my own. I just watched someone blow their own freaking head off, i'm not just going to forget about it in a week.

"You don't have to. I'm going to sell the house and we can start looking for a new one whenever you want." He gently caressed my swollen belly as he looked up at me.

"Okay.." I motioned for Zayne to get off of me, i stood up so i could go to the bathroom. I have to pee every two seconds and it's so annoying.

Also, i don't know if it's just me, or if more women have the same issue.. But it feels like when any type of fabric touches my belly it is uncomfortable. Not like it hurts or anything, it's just itchy and feels like my stomach is being suffocated. So i've been sticking to our room in his parent's house so i can walk around in just my bra and shorts. So my belly can "breathe."

"Babe, everyone would really like to see you.... you feel like coming down for dinner tonight?" He sounded so hopeful and it tugged at my heartstrings. I really don't feel like socializing, let alone getting dressed. But i do miss everyone.. and i've been holed up in this room long enough. I can't let this run my life.

Zayne and I have to find a house quickly and get a nursery set up, my due date is coming up faster and faster. I can't do all of that if i'm holding myself up in this room.

"Yeah, sure. But i'm not going to get dressed up.." I warned.

"That's fine, you don't have to." I grabbed an outfit and walked over and laid it out on the bed. I stripped off my shorts and grabbed the cocoa butter lotion. I rubbed it all over my belly, then got dressed in my maternity leggings and crop top shirt. I didn't even bother with socks or shoes because i'm not going anywhere besides downstairs.

"Ready, baby?" Zayne asked once i was dressed.

"Yes sir." Zayne took my hand and brought it up to his lips, kissing my knuckles gently.