𝚜𝚎𝚛𝚎𝚗𝚍𝚒𝚙𝚒𝚝𝚢 ~ 𝐝𝐫𝐞𝐰 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐤𝐞𝐲

𝚎𝚕𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚗

REAL LIFE.

i took a deep breath before knocking at Drew's door, my legs shaking from nervousness as i waited for him to open the door. finally the door opened, revealing Drew in all his beauty. he was wearing a pair of Levi's and a white shirt under a denim jacket, he probably was about to go out. he greeted me coldly and let me in.

we seated on his couch, his eyes fixed on the floor like it was the most interesting thing in the room.

"so, what did you want to talk about?" he questioned, i sighed.

"Vanessa."

he rolled his eyes "i saw her comment on your post and i'm gonna talk to her tonight, no prob" he said lazily, although i could hear a hint of annoyance in his tone.

"it's not about the comment" i scoffed as i leaned over to roll up my sweater sleeve to show him the scratches his girlfriend left me the day before. he frowned and looked at me straight in the eyes for the first time that night.

i quickly filled him in and he keep starting at me with a blank look on his face, as he was trying to process the information. his hand reached my arm, his thumb gently rubbing my skin.

"i'm sorry if she hurt you. it's all my fault i should have told her, but i was trying to avoid drama" i rolled my sleeve down, pulling back my arm from his hand "but i guess it didn't work" he continued, his eyes softened and his voice grew sad as he apologized.

i could leave it at that, but my stupid self decided to speak again. "it was working before you posted that picture" his face fell as i spoke and his cheeks blushed.

"sorry, i don't know what came over me" he said nervously, scratching the back of his head.

"whatever it was, please next time stop before doing such stupid things."

my bluntness clearly surprised him as he widened his eyes and quickly looked up from his shoes to meet my gaze.

"it was just a picture" he defended himself.

i knew what he was doing with his puppy big eyes staring at me, but i didn't want to give in.

"no Drew, it wasn't. not for me. because you were trying to prove something, to mark you territory. you don't want me anymore, but no one can have me. is it true, isn't it? you barely talked to me since we met in Vegas, but you didn't hold yourself back from making bitchy comments about me and Austin. i've made a mistake when i left you three years ago and i admit that, i'd go back in time and change it, but i just can't, okay? you can't keep treating me like shit for that. i'm not asking you to forgive me or else, i just want to go on with my life. please let me." i blurt out, my eyes now filled with tears.

Drew managed to reach out my hand and, as much i wanted to, i couldn't find the strength to push him away. i close my eyes as i felt his hand on mine, and my heart started beating faster.

"i'm sorry Riles, i didn't mean to make you feel like that" i could see a glint in his eyes as he spoke "i was still mad at you, and i was mad at myself because i was jealous of you and Austin after all this time. i didn't want to push you away, i was just scared that if i let you in my life again then you would leave again and break my heart again" he said truthfully, looking at me with teary eyes and i couldn't help but tossing myself into his arms. he hugged me back as i buried my face in the crook of his neck and suddenly i felt home again.

when we eventually pulled away, i spoke again. "i feel like i've never really apologized for calling it quits. i'm really sorry, i just thought that a clean break could protect myself from hurting and i didn't care about how you felt. i was selfish and i hurt you when i should've supported you, because you did so much for me and you deserved that. i'll never forgive me for that" i barely whispered.

"thanks for apologizing, i needed to hear that" he said with a broken voice, wrapping an hand on my shoulder and pulling me closer. my head resting on his shoulder.

"i should've done this before" i said truthfully "you don't know how many times i wanted to call you, but i didn't want to break into your life and hurt you again. which is what i eventually did but i swear it wasn't planned" i laughed at the last part, making him laugh too.

"i missed your laugh" those words slip out of his mouth so naturally, he almost didn't realized it. his eyes widened and his cheeks slightly flushed when i realized what he had just said.

i couldn't help but giggle, my head still on his shoulder. both of us feeling more comfortable with each other.

"let's start all over again, as friends." he broke the silence after a few minutes. i slowly removed my head from his shoulder to look at him in the eyes, in search of any sort of clue of what he was actually thinking about.

he was staring at me waiting for some kind of feedback.

sure Drew, i'd be really happy to be your friend.

who, am i kidding? i wanted more. i wanted to hold his hand and kiss his lips.

but he was in a relationship and he was looking at me with his big blue eyes, hoping for a positive answer.

i just didn't want to disappoint him again. i didn't want to be selfish again.

i slightly smiled looking up at him.

"we're friends, then."

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aaaalso, make sure you stream Drew's last interview on youtube (you won't regret it 😏) he's literally baby 🥺