Speak now ; s. mendes

SIX

I felt my hand cramp up as I continue writing in my journal. I started from the night we met till now.

it felt good to write everything off my chest but there was still that small amount of guilt and it was small.

"y/n"

I near a knock on my door and see a nervous Shawn walk in.

I quickly throw my journal into the desk drawer and turn in the chair to face him. he was still in grey sweats white t-shirt. I watch him rub his hands rub together as he tries to come up with something to say.

"wheres Stella"

"she went out with her mom for lunch"

I don't say anything but look down.

"I'm not sorry"

he stands up fast making me jolt back a little.

"I don't know yet what I feel about all of this but when I see you my heart beat faster than light"

"Shawn"

"NO, no. I liked you first"

"then why didn't you tell me instead of being all over Stella"

he looks at me confused then sits back down.

"she told me that you were dating someone named Ethan"

I felt heat take over my face and now it was my turn to stand up. I walk back and forth placing my hands in my hair.

"It was one date that she set up, I never even talked to him after"

I was furious because Stella knew I didn't want to go out with him ever again days before the party. either way, we still shouldn't do this

"either way Shawn, you still have some sort of love for her and we can't do this now with only two weeks till the wedding"

he shakes his head then walks up to me connecting our lips.

there it was, the same feeling just like last night only better. he moves his hands lower and I jump around him.

he falls back onto the bed and we both laugh.

we connect again but this time he spins us around so he was on top.

"I'm home"

he jumps off of me and fixes himself before he walks out while I wait for a few minutes the leave next.

"did both of you just get out of bed"

we laugh and look at each other.

"how was lunch"

he lingers behind her then hugs her waist, I sit at the counter.

"We had fun but it was cut short when a load of fans came over"

Shawn nods and looks over at me.

"They were asking a lot about you y/n."

I was shocked but I figured some would still ask after everything with the photos.

"you should really start writing here in Toronto, being friends with Shawn is basically free publicity"

we all laugh and walk to the living room. we sit on the couch Shawn in the middle.

"I'm so exhausted I just wanna call this day finished"

we all agree and I head to my room. it was beautiful out so I walked out to the balcony with my computer, journal, and blanket.

maybe Stella was right, a story wouldn't be the worst. and who knows what the ending will be.