𝙵𝚘𝚛𝚎𝚒𝚐𝚗𝚎𝚛 𝚒𝚗 𝙺𝚘𝚛𝚎𝚊 ➳ 𝙹𝚘𝚑𝚗𝚖𝚊𝚛𝚔

XVII

My world suddenly turns silent. It's like everything is on mute. And everything passes by so slowly... The anime looking guy smiles brightly and goes forward to shake his hand with the CEO. I just can't stop staring at him. He will touch Johnny. Johnny will touch him like he touches me. Slowly, the tears fall out of my eyes. I just keep staring and I don't hear Johnny whispers. I don't feel his touches right now... And I don't want to feel or hear them right now.

I snap back into reality after what feels to be 20 minutes. The tears are streaming down my face and my body shakes so hard, it's nearly impossible to stand in one place. I suddenly hear Johnny's whisper in my right ear. "You still did an amazing j-"

But I just shake my body away from him, I just don't want to hear those words right now. He looks at me worried and reaches out for my hand. But I just slap his hand away. I turn my face to the CEO, and I realize that everyone in the room is staring at me and Johnny, but honestly, I don't care. "Please, excuse me..." I turn my head a little more and look at the guy named Yuta. "And congratulations."

That's when I pass Johnny and go out of the room. As soon as the door closes, I just run to the elevator. I just want to get the fuck out of this building. Everyone that sees me, gives me a weird look. But I don't care at this point.

I see those 2 in front of my eyes. Holding each other on the set and keeping their faces super close, because of their photos. And when those come out, everyone will love those pictures of Johnny and Yuta. Johnny will start developing feelings for Yuta and Yuta will do as well. At this point, I am already outside of the building and I just sit down on the stairs in front of the company. I hold my legs real close to my body and just cry into my knees.

While people are passing me, they're just talking about random things. But I am starting to hallucinate and see and hear things that don't even exist.

Two women pass me and say. "Yuta and Johnny's photos are so super cute. I guess they're in a relationship." The second woman replies. "They have to be! Their kiss on the third photo looks so full of emotions." But suddenly the first woman turns her face to me and says in a lower voice, that doesn't sound natural. "And you will never shoot with Johnny. Because you're not good enough!"

I shut my eyes and ears from those words, because deep down I know they're not true. I push my face into my knees, but more and more people are circling me and trying to break into my personal space, which doesn't exist anymore at this point.

"You're not good enough!" "Johnny just sees you as a partner." "Yuta and Johnny are so cute~" "Worthless!"

"No! I am not worthless! Stop it! Stop it!!"

I am trying to shut those words down by screaming at them, but nothing works. I just feel so trapped. I just want to get out of here, but there is no escape. My tears are streaming down my face again, while I am trying to take control over my thoughts, but I just can't. One last scream and I hear a familiar voice calling my name from far away.

"-rk! Mark! Wake up!"

I am opening my eyes in a hurry and look around only to find myself in the elevator with Johnny. I was crouching on the floor, like I was on the stairs. I look Johnny in the eyes, and he stares back worried. Was all of that just a dream?