I'm not okay, can you hear me?
i think i'm afraid
I might even be terrified
of life,
of me,
of yousorry
sorry
sorryhow many times have I said it,
surely too much
or maybe not enoughsince you were always gone
leaving me alone
sad
sickand I hate you for that,
I hate you for giving up on me when I needed youbut i love you so much
so much that I dieif you come back
would you give me a hug ?
would you hit me ?
would you tell me that you love me ?
do you want to make love to me ?i don't want you to come back
but i want you to come back
so come back
no don't come back
you hurt me so gobut without you I feel a gaping hole in my heart
do you think of me ?
do you regret being gone ?
do you still love me ?
have you ever really loved me ?