【The Only One ✫ Amamatsu】

❥Chapter 8: Why Does Love Hurt Like This?

Rantaro's POV

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I looked at the last message I sent to Kaede, making sure she saw it before going to bed. I sigh and place my phone aside, before going over to my sisters' rooms and tucking them into bed.

Why do I feel so exhausted?

Like, I do this everyday of every week of every month but.. I feel more tired than usual and it's actually kind of annoying me a bit.

Maybe it's one of my moods, or maybe it's just me again. But no doubt about it I'm not my usual self lately, I feel like a completely different person.

I collapse on my bed, not wanting do anything anymore.

I didn't want to think, I didn't want to talk, I didn't want to move, I didn't want to do anything that involved me doing something. I'm sick of being me. So I close my eyes and try to forget the exhausting feeling in my chest.

But...

Everytime I close my eyes I see her silhouette, or even her own face. The face and smile of Kaede Akamatsu. Why did I feel so hesitant now? Why, that's the only word I could ever think of right now.

Not that I dislike her, she actually gave me a good impression. But why do I feel an unusual feeling toward her right now? It's not how I usually felt towards her, but it felt kind of warm and fuzzy in my chest. What was this?

Whatever it is...I don't want to feel it. I want it to stop.

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~Time skip brought to you by Alter Ego~

I woke up to a horrible dream, panting and sweating immensely, I got out of bed to try and get ready for school. It was five in the morning, so I don't mind it.

Making my way to the bathroom, I turned on the lights and closed the door behind me. Under the flickering lights, I saw my tired reflection in the mirror and I groaned. I looked dreadful.

After opening the tap, I let the cool water run over my hands, before cupping my hands and started to wash my face. Crap, the soap ran out?

Well isn't that just great.

I wipe my face with my ragged towel, and when I looked into the mirror my eyes red and puffed up. Have I been crying? That's weird.

I fold my towel and put it back in its place, and I stretched my arms into the air after exiting the bathroom. I hope today will be better than any other day.

But I'm just thinking of the same thing again, aren't I..? I always think that to myself whenever I wake up in the morning while getting ready for school.

I make my bed and pack up my homework I did the night before, and head downstairs quickly and silently, hoping not to wake up anyone asleep.

Heading to the kitchen, I take out the white bread and some peanut butter spread, and made myself some breakfast. Once I'd done eating, I washed my plate and fixed everything up before going back upstairs to get dressed.

After I'd finished getting ready, I opened the front door and went out, and I put on my headphones and listened to 15 Min Flame by Poets of the Fall while walking to school.

I checked my phone for any new messages from Kaede, and she sent a text saying 'Kay so my sister wants me to go with her for shopping I'll see u tomorrow in school g'

Its been a few months since I got her number, and we did nothing but talk, talk and talk. Januto hasn't been coming to school lately, so I bet he won't be here as well today. Hah.

I walked desperately towards the direction of school, not wanting to be involved in some unwanted business. Soon enough though, it started to rain, and I basically started running.

By the time I reached the school, the gates were already opened and a few students were already heading in. Looking down, I walked towards the front doors and made my way to class.

I wonder if I'm the first in class.

But once I'd reached there, I opened the door to see Kaede sitting on one of the desks, looking out of the window while the rain pattered against the glass. She had a solemn look on her face.

We were the only ones in class at the moment.

"Kaede?" I spoke out, and she turned around and looked at me. "Hey there." she said, lifting her hand up in greeting. "You're pretty early today, Rantaro." she said. The blonde looked back out of the window, speechless.

"I woke up pretty early this morning, so I decided to make use of my time." I reply to her while settling down on my seat. She glanced at me and smirked. "So aren't you going to ask me why I'm early?" she asked me.

I shrugged slightly, and sat down near her. "Fair enough. Why are you early?" I ask, and her smirk faltered a little. "My sister's alarm clock went off, and she wakes up a lot earlier than me." she said.

She turned her head to look at me, and our gazes locked. "And how would you randomly wake up at nearly four in the morning? " she asked. "Bad dream, childish but reasonable." I said.

Kaede then smiled and laughed a bit, and one of her hands shifted closer to mine, and our fingers interlocked. "It's nice when it's this silent." she mummered, and I nodded slowly in agreement.

"Yeah it sure is."

End of chapter
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