Taylor Holders little sister 💕

😔Reminiscing ( thinking back )🤔

      I woke up this morning to my alarm buzzing
I slammed my hand on it to shut it off . I rolled over in bed covering myself more with the blanket . I laid in silence thinking about random things until I remebered the day my heart was broken .

Flashback :

It was 5 and 4 will they win ?, i was at my Ondreaz 's football game tonight cheering him on and supporting him . He was the quaterback I watched him catch the ball and run as fast as he could towards the touchdown zone until he made it . Everybody cheered , it was now the end of the game I was by the bleachers with my friends talking while I was waiting for Dre . When my friend tapped my shoulder and pointed to the back of me , I turned around and saw Dre and Maleny the schools popular and mean cheerleader . They looked like they were making out . My expression dropped I had tears in my eyes , I just kept looking until he finally pulled away and he saw me . I immediately saw the regret in his eyes but I didn't care I ran out of there as he chased me . I ran to my car with tears in my eyes , when I felt a hand grab my wrist .
D: baby please I am sorry
Y: DONT BABY ME LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE I CANT BELIEVE YOU WOULD DO THAT TO ME , WHAT AM NOT PERFECT ?!
DO YOU NOT LOVE ME ?!
D: of course I love you I always have and I always will b-
Y: no no save your bullshit I fucking hate you dont ever talk to me again you asshole
I threw his sweater at him the one I whore our first date . I got in my car and drove off while he watched me leave . I got home and ran to my room Taylor following me .
T: hey you ok ?
I opened the door and ran into his arms
Y: no , no I am not
He comforted me
T: hey it's ok just tell me what happened ?!
Y: he cheated on me right in my face tay
I began to cry harder
T: awww sugarplum I am so sorry
He hugs me tighter while I cry into his chest .
T: how about we watch a movie huh?
I nodded my head
T: yeah?
Y: yeah
That night I cried so much I felt very numb in the morning I felt like that for weeks and weeks until I fell in a coma and they found out I had an illness .

I snapped back to my thoughts I noticed I was crying I wiped my tears away and got up . I went to the bathroom and gave myself a pep talk . I do it every morning just to keep my self-esteem up .
Y: why can't you get over him it has been 2 years come on forget him . He doesn't deserve you let's go your a bad bitch you shouldn't be crying over a boy that loved you so much but broke your heart in an instance- god damn it
y/n come on your ok your happy let's go .
I got in the shower and did my morning routine I also put this outfit on :

I thought that I might finally go out for once . I haven't gotten out of my apartment in 2 weeks I usually have my food delivered so I didn't have to go out but I wanted to today . I grabbed my car keys and left to the mall . I decided I wanted a knew look , i went to 3 different places and got three new  looks :

I got back home after shopping for snacks , food , clothes and some other necessities. I went up to my room and changed into this :

I was just laying on my couch when someone knocked on the door . I thought it was weird since I haven't had anybody over in a long time . I went up to the door high alert . I opened the door and my first instinct was to punch who ever it was so i did .
???: Argh fuck y/n
I recognized that voice , it was Taylor's . I ran up to him and helped him up then hugging him.
T: hey there lil sis
He said rubbing his nose , I giggled
Y: hi and sorry Tay
T: that's alright well now I know you can take care of yourself
T: wow you've changed
Y: yeah I just got a new look you like ?
T: of course I do
Y: so what's wrong
T: nothing why ?!
Y: no like why are you here
T: oh I came to visit
Y:oh ok there has to be something you want because I haven't seen you In 2 years
T: look I am sorry I got caught up in work and I haven't come to see if your ok and I very sorry but I am now and I really want you to come live with me
Y: Tay-
T: look before you say anything I just really need you right now and I want you to be with me just for a few , plz
Y: Tay I love you but I can't ok Not with-
T: him yeah I know
Y: yeah
I looked down
T: look I have something to say to you and I am sorry that I am saying this to you and I really love you ,, and don't shut me out but you got to get over him y/n it's been 2 years
Y: You think it's easy to get over somebody Tay hmm , tell me plz because I need to know ?!!
I had tears coming into my eyes now
Y: you think I don't try to get over him because I do a lot , but I can't because he was bringing me happiness and I actually felt  loved by somebody other than you . I felt like I actually had a place in some else's heart
I was now crying and Taylor was looking down trying not to cry .
Y: I was so ignorant and I regret it , I regret so much . But I can't get over him no matter how hard I try ok ?!
T: y/n I am sorry
He steps in and hugs me
T: I am sorry Bubs
T: but look at me
He lifts up my chin to look in his eyes
T: you are strong and brave , you are independent you don't need a man and you don't need to cry over one he lost a heck of a woman ok so keep you head up your to beautiful to be sad
Y: thank you TayTay
T: your welcome bunny
I let go of his hug and looked at him playfully mad and confused . Bunny was my nickname as a little girl because me and Tay had a cute arguement I couldn't be a bunny when I grew up .
Y: did you just call me bunny ?!
I say chuckling and hitting his arm . We had a luaghing fit until he got a phone call
T: hey yeah what's up
I heard a muffled voice
T: yeah yeah I'll do it
T: yeah ok I'll be right there bye
I stopped listening
T: I gotta go but I will be here tomorrow ok
Y: ok I love you
T: I love you too
I watched him walk out of he door as he was about to step into his car he yelled
T: THINK ABOUT COMING TO LIVE WITH ME!!
Y: I WILL !
I blew him a kiss and he catched it . I chuckled at our childishness . I went back inside and layed in my bed thinking about living it's him maybe I should . I miss him a lot and I think I can avoid Dre . I just don't know .