Lizzie says I should just write down anything that comes to mind. That I'm probably just overthinking it all. Probably. I guess if I can write about anything--I had a nightmare last night. The usual, where I see everyone dead on the rocks. Somehow I'm still falling. But I can't get back up and--I wish I could forget. -I don't remember when life was normal.- I'm supposed to have a plan for everything. A plan to get better, a plan to go to school to go go go through life, when I just want to stop. I'm so tired. Mom doesn't understand that. But she's never really stopped her whole life. And I can't say anything, because I don't want her to be disappointed in me. I'm supposed to be able to handle this. Lizzie only talks about the Underland with me, but I think Boots has mostly forgotten. Or she thinks it was a game or something. Sometimes I hear her talking in crawler, and when I ask her about it, she says it's a nonsense language she made up. Somehow it makes me sad to think she'd forget. I don't have a plan for any of this. This was never supposed to happen. I wish i could go back to the Underland. I wish I could see Luxa again or bring her here to see the Overland. But she can't leave and I can't go back. I don't have a plan for that either.
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TUC Oneshots/Drabbles
Fanfictionfeaturing TUC Week entries (from 2019 onwards), as well as various drabbles and oneshots of mine. (temp cover)
