Oneshots

Skinny Dipping (boyxboy, Ruining Us extra)

Eddie x Danny oneshot

Skinny Dipping

{~Danny’s POV~}

 

I always wondered how long it would take me to find a guy I liked.

I’d never liked girls. I realised it at fourteen, when I found myself thinking Harris had a really nice body, but Amy-Jo, the curviest girl in our year, did not. I never told anyone; I wasn’t afraid to be accepted or anything, I knew my friends and most people in my year didn’t much care, but it was just something I didn’t really want to tell people about.

Jess teased me about not having a girlfriend from the moment she was old enough to understand that whole thing, and eventually Amy caught on, too. It didn’t bother me if they found out. They’d probably be huge fan girls – Amy would, definitely – but I could deal with that. I knew my dad wouldn’t care, and neither would my mum.

As the years progressed, I found myself getting lonely. No one knew I was gay so no one made a pass at me, but I was too shy or too lacking in self esteem to ask anybody out. I met Joey when I was eighteen and admired him afar, but it was the classic case of him being the straight player, myself being the fairly shy gay kid in the corner.

Nothing ever happened between us, apart from one tiny slip up from me calling him attractive one day. He just laughed and forgot about me, and I was invisible yet again. I’ll never know what I saw in him.

Then I went to university and everything changed.

When I saw how happy and carefree people were, I realised just how sad and lonely I was, but was unsure of how to come out. Out of my four closest friends, Harris (yes, the same one from when I was a kid), Leo, Eddie and Jordan, Eddie was the first person I told. I told him everything and he just listened and when I was finished, he gave me a big hug and helped me through it.

I’m not sure at what point it was that I fell in love with him, or why, at first. It became apparent soon that I was majorly crushing on him. Finally, sick and tired of seeing all these openly gay dudes holding hands around campus, making out at parties, while I was holed up in Narnia, one day I just told my best friends. They were so nonchalant about it, like they’d known all along.

I spoke to Eddie that night and asked him if he’d told anyone. He just shook his head with a smile, telling me it had been obvious all along, they were just waiting for me to be ready. I felt really stupid but he gave me another one of his awesome hugs and that was when I realised how lucky I was to have him.

I wanted to tell him how I felt about him but I had no idea how. I didn’t think it would ruin our relationship; Eddie was never fazed by anything. I just had no idea what to do, how to do it, how to say those three fucking simple words that held so much more meaning.

When we were invited to Spain by the Richmond’s that summer, I felt like I was going to die of excitement. Three weeks on holiday with Eddie. I got to see him all the time anyway because we shared a dorm and lived across the road from each other, but somehow this was more special.