Falling game

01

"Fudge, asan na kaya yung tukmol na yun?" I sighed.

For pete'sake Kanina pa'ko andito sa coffe shop na napag-usapan namin. I looked at my wrist watch, it's already 5pm almost one hour na akong nandito.

Oh man, I think he will ditched me again. Ba't nga ba ako nagtitiis sa pag-uugali ni kieffer? Dahil ba mahal ko s'ya? Takteng pagmamahal 'to. He's always like that, ditched me. Ako naman 'tong si tanga konting lambing lang bumibigay agad, haist bak—

"Chryseis Zhyera Mechailer!!" Gulat akong napatingin sa harapan ko.

"Zeia!" I stood up and hug her.
"Ano bang iniisip mo? Kanina pa ako tawag ng tawag sayo eh" Nakalabing saad n'ya.

"Wala, hinihintay ko lang si kieffer," nakabusangot kong sabi.

"Ha? Kieffer nanaman? Alam mo masyado ka nang martyr ba—

I looked at the man who's entering here in the coffee shop.
He's wearing a black Jag shirt and khaki short.

I was about to call him, but I notice he's not kieffer. Fuck! Muntik na yun ah. "Mapapahiya ka talaga pag di'ka umayos!" I scolded myself.

I think I already saw him sa campus. His my senior and my girlfriend daw sya, Well rumors. I caught him staring at me kaya I stared at him too, sya ang unang bumigay, umiwas sya ng tingin. I always heard his name sa campus kasi marami s'yang friends na ml player din. I heard sumasali daw s'ya sa mga tournament. I dunno

"Heller, Z are you listening to me?" She raised her brow. "Ow sorry, ano nga yun Z?" Tumingin ako sakanya.

"Duh, sinasabi ko sayo 'wag mo ng hintayin yun di nanaman sisipot yun! Alam mo, para kang aso dito na naghihintay na dumating ang amo mo." kaibigan ko ba talaga 'to?, Nasasaktan nako ah, But I understand her naman kasi ayaw n'ya lang ako masaktan. Prangka kasi s'ya na tao, sinasabi n'ya Kung alam n'yang tama. Well I like her when she's like that kasi naitatama ko mga mali ko.

"Savage!" I looked at the man who's saying that. S'ya din yung lalakeng muntik ko na matawag kanina. May gana pang mag ngising aso, ulol!
"Bang na neck" natatawa parin s'ya. Problema neto? Baliw!

"Z naman 'e dadating yun baka na traffic lang" I pouted.

"Anong na traffic? Nakita ko nga kanina sa may downtown kasama si Selina'ng haliparot" then she rolled her eyes.

"Huy shup up ka nga! Baka may makarinig sayo, Girl bestfriend lang naman n'ya yun eh!" Nakalabing saad ko.

"Duh, Girl bestfriend?? Sure ka magkaibigan lang talaga sila? Baka nga di mo alam pagnakatalikod ka niloloko ka ng mga yun," 'tong bestfriend kong 'to makapagsalita kala mo may experience na, hmp!

"Kaibigan nga lang 'e. Sabi sakin ni kieffer na hanggang bestfriend lang daw yun lang!" Final kong sabi.

She looked at me seriously.

"I already warned you, Don't trust girl bestfriends. Hindi sa lahat ng panahon kaibigan rin ang turing nila sa kaibigan nila baka nga ka-ibigan na eh."

"You know I'm just trying to fix him, Malay mo di na s'ya uulit." Tugon ko.

"Stop telling your self you can fix him.
His been this way for a long, long time and he doesn't intend to change.
Don't be a sacrificial lamb on the altar of his rage. Don't play the martyr to his hate. You can never save someone by letting them destroy you. That's not love. Its relational suicide. Save yourself instead. Get out while you still can." She seriously stated.

"Zeia! Tara na daw sabi ni dad!"
Ani ng kapatid nito.

"Bye Z, I love you. Basta yung sinasabi ko sayo ah."

She left me there dumbfounded.

When she's gone I think of what she said earlier, Don't trust girl bestfriend. Should I trust Selina or not?, putcha sumasakit ulo ko sa kanila 'e.

I sighed deeply.

I stood up, I had enough. Uuwi nako nakakapagod din maghintay, Palagi nalang ganito, pinapahintay ako palagi parang wala naman syang pake sakin eh. Kung di ko lang siya mahal naku!. Idunno bat mahal na mahal ko yun.

Before, he cheated at me. That day I questioned myself, di pa ba ako enough? Anong kulang sakin? Like wtf! He always makes me feel insecured to others. I was about to broke up with him that day but he cried! For fuck sake that's my weakness, seeing a man crying, idunno why, it's just that I felt week seeing them like that. So ayun pinatawad ko sya marupok ako sa taong mahal ko eh, sino ba namang hindi?

We're together two years and still counting. Ay bukas pa pala second anniv namin, masyado ka namang excited Chrys!.

"Babe!" I heard kieffer's voice, I looked around. There he is sa may entrance banda.

"Ba't ang tagal mo?" I raised my brow.

"Sorry babe, traffic lang" he was about to hug me but mahinang tinulak ko balikat n'ya.

"Wao, almost one hour kang traffic? And Zeia told me nakita n'ya daw kayo ni Selina sa Downtown." I sarcastically asked him.

"A-ah nagpasama lang s'ya sandali may binili kasi s'ya eh, sorry na babe please" he pouted and hug me. Enebe lumayo ka marupok ako!

I pouted and hug him back. Tingnan nyo marupok talaga ako, tsk. I saw the man who's staring at me earlier stared at us and rolled his eyes. Luh, bitter si koya?

"Babe, bat amoy pambabae perfume mo?" I asked him with my suspicious eyes. Nakita ko s'yang namutla.

"Uh, this is Ali's perfume nanghingi ako, ambango kasi eh," Kinakabahang tugon nya. Ali is his cousin, minsan lang naman si Ali sakanila ah? Pumupunta lang yun pagbakasyon.

"Andito na si Ali?" I raised my brow.

"Uh yep kanina lang dating n'ya" he sighed deeply.

"Ok ka lang?" Nag-aalala ako parang nagihirapan s'yang huminga eh.

"W-wala, ok lang ako, order nalang tayo."

We spend our day together, we went to sine and sa bahay nila. Legal na kami sa family n'ya lang kasi ang alam ng family ko ay friends lang kami, medyo strict kasi sila.

When I arrived home I went upstairs na, when I finished my half bath humiga nako sa kama ko.

Nag flashback nanaman yung nangyare kanina. Kay Ali ba talaga yun pabango? What if di kay Ali yun? What if niloloko nya nanaman ako? What if si Selina talaga? Fuck this 'what if's' ! Iniisip ko palang naiiyak na'ko.

Overthink again. Gaga stop it nga! Sinasaktan mo lang sarili mo!

I fell asleep dahil kakaisip. Haist kakapagod naman magmahal.

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