Then... I Met You Again

Safe

We're here again
This time I can breathe
This time I never want to leave

He made me feel afraid
Afraid to close my eyes
Please forgive me because
I'm damaged from the lies

Sometimes I don't know how
To tell you how I feel
Sometimes it's hard to separate
The fake from the real

I wanted to be alone
Until we met again
I don't think I can
Just be your friend

When you laid next to me
Snoring
I just wanted to stay there
Adoring

Lol maybe that's funny
But it's so true
I don't want to be with
Anyone else but you

You made me feel safe
And I never knew how that felt
I feel like an unlit candle
I'm afraid to melt

Melt into you, melt into this
But all my fears leave with one kiss

I love you
But how could you know?
Before, I let you go

Hurt before, and I hurt you more
I don't know what to say

He told me I was the storm
Darkness is all I know
In order to understand me
I have to let you know

My heart gets icy
I'm not used to someone who stays

You don't hang up on me
But I still worry you could
You don't tell me that I'm nothing
But how do I know you never would?

It's not what you do
It's what I've been through
It's what's already happened to me

Our fights ended with
Black eyes and bruises
No matter what I do
I'm the one who loses

Who I am
Is someone who survived

You made me feel safe
But the rug got pulled out from under me
You lost your cover

You lied to me too
I wish it wasn't true

Being next to you
Made me feel loved
Love I thought I knew
I guess I didn't before you

Afraid to let go, afraid to move on
I'm so afraid you won't stay long

I can't tell you my fears
I can't tell you what I feel
You think I compare you
When this is my reality, this is my real

Trust takes time to rebuild
Should we try to keep it alive
If it's already been killed?

Soon you'll have to make a choice
Listen to my voice

You are the man of my dreams
But for now it's just a dream
When you wake up,
I'm reminded that it's not next to me
It isn't me

I'm in a different place
Do you wanna keep that space?
I know that you want me but is it enough?
I think about this stuff.

I'm terrified of all of it
But my love for you runs deep
I wish that instead of pain
It was your heart I could keep

You made me feel like the sunrise
Like I was all of the stars
Now I feel so lost
Like I'm on mars

I want to love you for the long run
But for you, is this all fun?

Everything that scares you
It scares me too

I'm all alone but you're not
Give that some thought
I should be jealous
And maybe I am

I have that right
We had such a bad fight
Last night

I want to feel safe
And just be in your arms now
But how can we make this work?
How?