It's complicated

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A week has passed since Xavier's mother passed away. It's sad if you think about. She was still so young and full of life. But my mother used to always tell me that if someone passed their time on earth was for filled and they were needed elsewhere.

It doesn't make anything better but I guess you feel slightly better knowing that their elsewhere and that their happy. They don't have anymore suffering and pain, their only happy.

But anyway Xavier's been busy helping out with the arrangements for the funeral. I've been moral support for him because you could see it wasn't easy.

He's been spending most of his time at my place. He's hasn't been sleeping a lot. But I don't blame him, I wouldn't be able to sleep either. He lost someone dear to him. They decided to have the funeral this coming Saturday.

I got up and left Xavier to sleep a bit longer. I was busy with breakfast when I felt his arms wrap around my waist. His embrace felt warm and welcoming.

"Smells good. What you cooking?"

"Wait and see. Why don't you do me a favour and put the kettle on for coffee."

"Fine be like that."

He put the kettle on and made us some coffee. I finished up breakfast and we cleaned. He decided that he had to go home. He's family really missed him and I don't blame them.

They need to be together in this time. After all he has my support and his sister has his father's support but his father doesn't have anyone close by.

I messaged Em asking her to accompany me. I wanted to go to the mall and look for some things for the house and then some new clothes.

So she showed up and we went to the mall. I haven't spent time with her in a while. I was eyeing a pair of jeans I really thought would look good on me when I saw Livy looking at the same pair.

So I made a run for it and was about to grab them when she took them.

"Oh Claire nice to see you. You weren't eyeing these were you?"

"I was yes."

"Oh to bad because I'm fitting them and if they do look good I'm taking them. Best you find another pair you like."

Oh what a snob I'll show her. I'll have those jeans one way or another. So I grabbed Em and lead her towards the fitting rooms.

"(Em) What the hell are we doing?"

"We're gonna steal that jean from her."

"And why would we do that?"

"Because I want those jeans, there mine."

"Just forget about it."

"No I want those jeans."

"Why?"

"Because they'll make my body look even better."

"And that matters why?"

"Because."

"Oh my soul you wanna impress Xavier don't you?"

"Can we get those jeans?"

"I'm right, geez Claire what's wrong with you? I thought you wanted to play him."

"And I am it's part of the plan."

"What should I do?"

"Stay out here and give me a heads up. I don't wanna get caught by someone."

I hid in one of the open fitting rooms until she came out as soon as she walked passed I knocked her out. And I took the jeans.

We've been in the mall the whole day and I decided to buy us lunch. After that we left and went home. I made me and Em some coffee and she made the popcorn so that we could have a proper girls night.

Well at least until she needed to leave. I have paying attention to the movie when I caught Em smiling out of the corner of my eye.

"Why are you smiling?"

"Oh nothing I'm just happy that's all."

"Yeah and my name's Mary Poppins. Who's it from?"

"No one."

"Come on Em you can't lie to me I'm your best friend I know you better than anyone."

"Fine it's from this guy I've been seeing."

"And that is?"

"He's not from here."

"Oh really."

"Yeah."

Just then her phone rang and she got up to take the call. Must be from that guy she's been seeing. Not long after she got back.

"And?"

"And what?"

"What did he say?"

"He's coming to fetch me."

"For? I thought we had a girls night."

"We're gonna hang out that's all."

"Oh my goss your totally gonna do it aren't you?"

"What are you talking about?"

"Your gonna sleep with him aren't you?"

"That's none of your business."

"Come on Em. I'm your best friend."

Just then I heard a hooter.

"That's him. Bye I love you thanks for today."

"Be safe. Remember no protection no..."

"Don't even say it."

"Affection."

"Goss sometimes I hate you. I don't even know why we're still friends."

"Ah you love me you know it."

"Bye."

So she left and I continued watching the movie by myself. I heard my phone buzzing and saw that I had a text from Xavier.

"I need you. Can I please come over?"

Without hesitation I reply a quick yes. Damnit you know I've lost sight of why I really spent time with him. All off this I need you, I miss you still has gotten in my head.

All I wanted to do was play him and yet I find myself falling deeper and deeper. Oh my gosh I'm busy falling in love with him, why would I ever do that?

Such a stupid foolish girl now he's got me where he wants me. In no time he showed up at my place and I opened the door for him. He closed it and pulled me by my wrist.

He sat down and motioned for me to straddle him. Once I sat on his lap his hands were in my hair.

"Your so damn beautiful. Do you know that?"

"Well I wouldn't call it that but if you say so."

He placed his lips on mine and deepened the kiss. I could feel the insatiable need he had for me but I couldn't give in not now I mean I had to stick to the plan.

"The funerals tomorrow, I'll pick you up."

"Thanks."

Remember why you did this in the first place. But I couldn't there was this voice screaming screw it and take what you need.

No matter how hard I tried I couldn't resist his charm. So I gave in. His hands were under my shirt and somehow made their way under my bra.

But he pulled away and got up.

"What's wrong?"

"I have to go. I'll see you tomorrow."

"No Xavier wait, talk to me what's up with you?"