not a love song : bichie

thirty four

stanley

[ 8:33am ]

stanley:

bill they know

like they Know know

bill:

yea and somehow

i don't fucking care anymore

there were so many fans

i didn't want to take photos with any of them lol

neither did richie

but idc i needed to kiss him goodbye

stanley:

yeah :/// man this sucks doesn't it

bill:

yeah

yeah it really fucking does

stanley:

what did patty say about it

bill:

i've kinda been ghosting patty

stanley:

bill?????????

she's your manager???????

i don't think you can/should do that?????

bill:

yeah well i don't fucking care

sorry

i'll text her back tomorrow

i just don't want to deal with any of this

i'm sitting in a  car alone 

in an airport parking lot

my boyfriend is off to another country

i'm fucking crying because i miss him already

my mom has fucking cancer

i keep bailing on my brother because i feel like

shit and i don't want him to see me like this and

none of it makes any fucking sense

WHAT DID I DO WRONG GOD

i'll text you later i'm going to  go home now, i guess

hope i get in a car crash on the way home

haha just fucking kidding.