I don't know how to experience happiness with out the pain
Despite caring for those I always love without a single strain
The moment I'm alone the dread returns to quietly consume
Maybe i should be bleeding all alone sitting in my stale room
There's never been reason for someone else to share the curse with me
I'll explore the next tangent where I end in the hearse with due time
I know what I'm living for but unsure it's ever understood
When I'm just Living for myself I can't tell what's right and what's good
I've seen concerned glares when I express why I feel well to my friends
So I continue to feel like I'm stuck in this cold lonely hell
Then start a new tomorrow trying to better myself again
At the same time laying with my demons in their disgraceful den
