Gons POV:
When Killua says his goodbye and leaves for the night, the doctor give me some medicine and he heads out as well. I sigh finally, a breath.
The truth is.. I've just been acting happy for Killua so he won't worry about me.. I know it's wrong, but I can't let him find out. But I'm just nervous that it will come out when I have to go to therapy.
I just want it all to be over with, I just want to go home.. I want to leave this place.. I don't want to be here anymore! I'm sure that when I do get out.. killua will leave me.. I'm sure of it. It has to be true, what else could he want with me? That he actually likes me? Hah I wish.. ya.. I do wish.. I wish I wasn't so fucking broken. This is why I wanted to leave, I wanted to get out of this place, I wanted to be free.. but no, guess I'm the mistake, I can't even do that right..
I feel tears threaten my eyes again, and I rest on my side. I clench the sheets below me, and my eyes as well. As I try to go to sleep, but my mind keeps wandering back to the fact that killua is probably just using me.. and doesn't like me at all.. I'm so dumb.. why would I ever think he liked me in the first place.. like he said.. he was just hanging out with me because we were the same age.. nothing more. I knew I was right, and when I get out my life is going to go right back to where it left off. Alone.. with nothing. Still loving killua, feeling that pain that I'll never be loved..
Time skip to when Gon gets released!
"Gon~" I hear Killua hum out. Put on a smile. I turn my head around to face him. "Killua!" I say trying to say it as happy as possible. "Today's the big day! You excited?" He asks as he walks closer to the bed and kisses my forehead. "Yes I'm so happy to finally be able to leave, but not therapy.. I'm nervous.." I say quietly. "It's ok Gon, like I always say I'll always be with you, promise." He says. I nod my head, pretending to understand what he said. Ya right.. we will see about that.
The doctor walks in, and tells me to get all my stuff ready, and killua shows he he brought some clothes from my house. God he went in my house.. it's a mess.. "I haven't walked anywhere but my room in a long time." I say putting on my shoes. "Nothing much has changed about anything." He says as he shrugs his shoulders. We make it to the front desk, and the doctors tell me my appointment for therapy is tomorrow, and that I'm free to go home. We sign out, walk out the door and get in killuas car. "Sooo, I have a great thing planned for us today! You'll love it." He says smiling. "Really? What is it?" I ask confused. "It's a surprise~ you'll find out when we get there." He says as he backs out of the parking lot. I pout. "You're mean.." I say and he laughs. "Well I don't wanna ruin the fun, but I promise you'll love it." He replies.
Time skip
We pull up to this really fancy looking place. "What is it?" I ask. "The fanciest restaurant I could find in York New. Like I said I was gonna do when you got your casts off." He says with a big warm smile. "And there's salad, I made sure there was. My eyes light up, "then what are we waiting for?!" I ask excited. I I go to reach for the door handle, but before I could something else opens the door. I look up and Killuas standing there looking down at me with a smirk. "I'll open the doors from now on, it's what good boyfriends do." He says with a wink. "Even though we aren't officially dating, yet." I take his hand, blushing and embarrassed. "W-whatever.. meanie." I say as he pulls me up carefully, and we start to walk in.
Time skip to after they eat (sorry so many time skips 🥺)
"That salad was amazing! I loved it! Thank you so much killua!" I say as I kiss his cheek, scared of what might happen when I do maybe he would be disgusted in me.. maybe he would- "You're welcome Gon, I'm a man of my word, so I found the fanciest restaurant I could, and took you." he says with a smile, and his cheeks s little red. When we got in the car, killua opens me door again. When we sit down, "Oh ya.. there's something else for you Gon, it's at your house." He says with a devilish smirk. "Another one?" I ask. He nods his head, and pulls out of the parking lot.
When we get there, he opens my door and I step out. "Ok I'm going to cover your eyes with my hands ok? I'll lead you inside." He says "Ok..." I say hesitant, and curious. He gets behind me and covers my eyes, and starts to lead me inside. We get closer to the porch, and I hear him open the door.
"WELCOME HOME!"
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FanfictionThis is a killugon angst! So read to find out!! Gon: 21, bottom Killua: 21, Top ⚠️warning! ⚠️ This fanfic contains: Selfharm, Suicide, Eating disorders, 18+ (Rolls are kinda reversed ) I DO NOT OWN HXH OR THE CHARACTERS!! JUST THE STORY!