-- LEA --It's been a week since we exactly talk through calls, texts, and circumstances permit seeing each other faces via facetime. Late afternoon today conference ended had a few talks with some people we know. My mother and Tito Alvaro went back to our hotel I, on the other hand, am now up above here on board excited to see him and being able to hug him again, and this might also mean being up here not in a literal way because I am now in cloud nine of thoughts. How in the hell did Aga make me feel this way? I haven't missed a person -- romantically speaking -- this way for a very long time. I miss his smell, his touch, his care, I miss everything about him that found its new home in my system every time we're together and excited being home to him every damn f*cking time he's not around. It may be too early to say that I am in love with him, but how can I explain this foreign feeling? I haven't felt this intensity with my ex-boyfriend before, so if I am not in love, then, what? I can feel his love even without words those eyes of him can never lie to me. I just wonder when will he ask the question for us to be official, my arms are now wide open to welcome, and gladly pour my heart out to answer that question with a "Hell Yes!!!!"
"Where are you?" I immediately call Sarah when I walked out of the airport, she was picking me up now to drive me to him. Well, he didn't know that I'll be back today so I am now silently uttering a prayer that he's home. I told mom and Tito Alvaro that I booked a flight the day the conference is over, as expected both of them teased me that I can hardly take a day being away from him and that I am so excited to see him again. My mother knows me so well so I didn't dare to give them any remarks, I just shrugged and smiled.
"Ate, let me help you with that." I hand her some bags of pasalubong I bought for her, my friends, and of course for him.
"Kamusta Cebu, ate? Did you have a good time?" Sarah asks, taking her glance at me and then diverting her eyes focus on the road driving.
"It was fine. Good, all work-related still. Good time?" I rolled my eyes and continue "You know I am such a home buddy. My good time is staying in my bed, reading a book, watching a movie, enjoying my cup of coffee, or playing my games." and being with him cuddling on a coach or just talking about how's our day and everything under the sun -- but I didn't tell her that. She laughed and says "Oh sorry. I forgot that."
"Whatever, Sars!" A good time for others is partying, and drinking which is okay as long as they are enjoying but that's not for me. Though I sometimes still attend a party and drink a glass or two at my friends' parties, family gatherings, and if there's a work-related party that needed my presence. I used to enjoy the noise and loud fun when I was a teen, maybe? As we grow old we grow wise, and we somehow find silence, a small circle of trusted friends, time for our family, special someone -- if any --, and alone time as time well spent.
"Sars, please arrange the pasalubong and bring my luggage to my room. Mom will be home tomorrow after lunch, she already knows I'll be staying with Aga and be home on Sunday before dinner. Thank you, dear sister."
"Do you have extra clothes, if I will bring your luggage home?" She asked me with an arched brow gaze still focus on the road.
"I have extra clothes on my backpack," I state matter-of-factly.
"Came prepared, aren't you?" Oh, I sense something on that.
"I'm always prepared wherever I go, ever know that? Shush you, it is not what you're thinking."
"Hoy ha! Judger ka po masyado. Wala po akong iniisip concern lang eh baka wala kang pam-palit na damit. Ibibili po kasi kita."
"Hay naku! I know you so well, I know the meaning of every tone you gave me. Duh, we're sisters for who knows how long, if you ever forgot that my dear sister, then, it's my pleasure to remind you that." We laughed together and from that, we had some reminiscing about our childhood.
"We're finally here! Yah'excited, ate?" and here she goes again... Well, yeah! I'm excited to see him, but I didn't tell her that. I just shrugged, and kiss her goodnight before reaching for the car door.
"Thank you so much, baby sis. Text me when you're home, ha? I'm sorry for being such a burden tonight. I love you. Take care, okay? Thank you again."
"Sus, you're never a burden to me. Anytime, ate. I love you, too. Enjoy you two." When will this teasing end? It's hard to contain my kilig or hide the auto-smile by just mentioning him, I might give my lip bleed by biting it every time I try to hide a smile.
"Whatever, Sars. You go na, drive safely. Love you. Don't forget to text me, okay?" I blow her kisses before she drives off.
Standing in front of his house gate I search for his number on my phone about to dial him when I realize that I purposely didn't respond to his messages and answer his call all day for this surprise, so I should ring the doorbell.
-- AGA --
A week feels a lifetime when you're missing someone and fighting the thoughts of doubts and fear of repeating the same scene that's been playing within your brain. I know I should be honest with myself and to her, but the right thing drown deep down and my fear is enjoying the surface.
I called and texted her when I woke up, during lunch, during an afternoon break, after work and when I got home, I even my dad and her mom lucky me they texted me back after the conference but the only thing I got was "She's doing something important. We also can't bother her, don't worry she's fine." Left with no choice, I let her be.
I try to distract myself by watching some documentaries, though it doesn't help even just a bit. Thinking of this kind of situation long ago is driving me crazy, I wish to have a brain like a sieve for that certain moment.
"Load of shit, perish the thought!" I tell no one but myself.
Maybe I should just hit the hay. I turn off the television, stood, and was about to climb the stairs when a doorbell stopped me. I am not expecting anyone to drop by, so... Who?
I went outside without any idea who was waiting for me on the other side of the door.
Rooted in my spot when I saw who it was. My jaw dropped and it feels like she had just taken everything in me. I can't make any move. Words stuck in my throat that I had to cough to dislodge them.
"Lei?" I don't even know If I said her name right, I'm still in a state of shock. She's the least I should expect to be here, not that I don't like her here, damn I love her to be here but I thought her flight is scheduled for tomorrow.
Slowly taking her steps toward me "Can't believe your eyes, babes?" We're standing toe to toe, locked in our gaze taking in each other presence. Then, she enveloped me in a hug. Her scent intoxicating scent is invading me, telling me that she's here with me. I give in and return her warm hug and tell her "I missed you so much."
"I know. I was counting down the days to be with you again. I can't wait, so instead of tomorrow I'm here now."10-20-2020 ☺️
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It's You
FanfictionTwo people that have been through a lot are now afraid to fall in love again. Will they take a risk the moment they feel that love is slowly poking them? Will they jump the uncertainties that love can bring in their lives?
