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Chapter 15

"Thanks for letting me come round, I appreciate it," I tell my older brother through tears as he hugs me close to his chest.

"Don't be stupid. You're welcome round, always. Stay as long as you need, I mean it," he tells me, looking down at me. "Talia's out with Freya and JJ's in the gym so it's just us for right now," he explains, slowly unwrapping his arms. 

"Feels like before I met everyone, you remember? I came to stay with you during half term then I quit university and stayed with you in your first flat," I smiled, remembering how long ago that was. 

"Wow, I can't believe that was over three years ago now. And look, you're basically more famous than me at this point. I hear something about a tour?" 

"Yeah, three weeks until my first show. I believe it to be in Italy? I'm not too sure. I just get on a plane wherever they tell me to go. Kyle's in charge of it all, I just listen to him," I confess, sitting down on his sofa, my bag next to me. 

I saw his eyes flicker down to my left hand, and then look back up at me with concern. I wondered how long it would take him to notice. 

"We're still engaged - I think. I just don't want to think about him and having it on would make me think of him." I tell him. 

"I know you're upset and angry, and you have every right to be, I'm not saying you don't, but I just want to make sure you know he loves you. Believe me, when I found out I wanted to hurt him in every way imaginable, but he would do anything for you. I think the thought process in his head was, if he didn't tell you and you didn't find out, you wouldn't get upset-"

"But I did find out. And he did lie. I don't get why he didn't tell me. Of course I wouldn't like it if he told me he was going to his ex girlfriend's house, but I'd have preferred it over him lying to me. I've known him for what? Three years? I'd like to have thought that he would trust me," I tell him.

"Yeah, but-"

"This is like Talia going to her ex boyfriend's house and lying to you about it. This is Talia telling you she's going to Freya's house and then she gets caught red handed at her ex boyfriend's house. What would you do?"

"I'd do the exact same as you," he admitted, taking a deep breath and looking at me. 

"I'm so sorry, Sophie," he said dejectedly. "Like I said before. You're welcome to stay here as long as you need. You are more than welcome as always, the guest bedroom is yours until you don't need it."

"I appreciate that, I do."

"Anyway, moving on...I need to record a video, do you want to be in it? You know, for old times sake?" He asked, a grin spreading on his face. 

"I don't know...it's been ages since I've properly been in or made a video," I said doubtfully. Plus the fact I had been crying today, I looked an absolute state. 

"Well I'm not going to pressure you into it, but I'd love for you to do it. It would just be asking commonly answered google questions," he said. I guess that would be fun. "And if there are any you don't want answering, I can get my editor to edit that part out," he added. 

"Hold up - you have an editor? Look at you, Mr Rich and Famous," I teased, whilst nodding my head. "Sure, I'll record the video with you. Let me go and at least wash my face first, though. I look horrendous right now," I tell him, leaving him for the bathroom whilst he went in his office to set everything up. This was my first time at his new place since he had moved in two months ago. It was very nice and looked very expensive, although we could afford those things now. 

Who would've thought. 

I swilled my face a couple of times, dabbing it with a towel to get rid of the patchiness and eventually I looked ready.