The Dream That Came True

The Recording

I opened minecraft and set up my microphone stuffs and do my intro. "Hello Guys! Blair here! Welcome back to another survival games episodeeee!! And im here with......." "Whatsup guys! My name is Bayani!" Bayani interfered. I laughed, Bayani laughed too. that time, I was so amazed that I finally achieve my goal that is to record with Bayani. After uploading that video to youtube, I recorded again with Bayani but this one is to put on Bayani's channel. After recording for both of our channel, we had some 'chit chats' and we asked each other about how's life, and we get to know each other better. I told him about how I love him, Graser, H, Parker, Will, Brayden and the rest of the cube member and how they changed my life. How they change me from a girl who is depressed, to a cheerful girl like i am right now. From a girl who self harms to a girl that think every thing happen will have their own positivity. He was so shock after hearing me saying I self harmed. he asked me why I self harm. I said "I was such a depressed kid when I was younger, I get insecure easily, whenever I see someone really pretty, I will want to kill my self. but killing my self wont let me suffer from the pain, so I cut." Bayani told me that he once self harmed too. But he doesnt tell me the reason. Whenever I asked why, he will try to act like he doesnt hear me. Well, its too private I guess? Now, I can talk informally with jordan. everytime I think at it back, he was my idol before. But now, I can talk to him. Just like he is my bestfriend, online bestfriend. All of my friends, they are not true friend. They dont help me through my problems while watching the cube member's video makes me happy. Eventhough they dont know me, they help me through their problems, watching then happy is one of the reason why im still breathing right now. I might just kill myself but fortunately, I saw graser's cube episode and it lead me to Bayani's awesome channel.
I started recording with Bayani every single day. I usually very happy when im recording with him. But im not that happy anymore after my mom said that I need to move to Seattle and study there. That means, no more recording. I mean, I will record but not with great internet. Damn. Well atleast I can still record. But how do I bring all of my microphones and my iMac with retina display? My mom knew I was worried about that, so she told me that she will do something about it. Im so happy after hearing that I wont stop recording and doing what I love that is playing minecraft. Im so happy. I recorded solo that afternoon, and talked about the plans. I said that Im going to Seattle and may not post some videos for a few week. Im actually quite sad about that but what can I do, I need to study to have an awesome job. Or else, I wont have a good future. For now, youtube is my main job but i cant just live with limited money, i need to have a real job and make Youtube as my part time job. "But guys dont be sad, Im leaving in 3 weeks time, I still have 3 more weeks to record and post daily. I'll try my best to not abandoned you guys and will try my best to post at least 5 videos a week, ok lovelies?" I added before ending my survival games episode 146. And i do my outro right after saying that. "Ok bye guys i'll see you guys next time! I love you fabtasticians!" And then i put my outro music that my friend, Cindy made it for me. Since that day, I started spending all of my time recording and do some collabs with some other youtubers. I played with Bayani alot. I feel like, Im not his fan anymore, Im his friend. We played survival games, lucky block wars and other minigames together and Im so happy to be with him.