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sleep

Yo wassup my people.

Recently I've been having a hard time getting a healthy amount of sleep. Every night I get around 2 - 4 hours of sleep and I can't fall back asleep after I wake up. I'm not having nightmares, in fact the little sleep I do get is quite enjoyable. My sleep schedule has never really been this bad at least on this side of the sleep spectrum.

In middle school I was kinda like really depressed and skipped alot of school and barely did any work. I had spent most of my time sleeping. I'd go to sleep right after I'd get home for a nice nap and then I'd sleep in class as much as I could. And I would have I nice 8 hour night everyday. The summers were worse but I'm not sure I really want to go into detail about them so.... moving on!

With covid being a thing now I have basically no motivation to accomplish anything. So you would think that I'd be sleeping more right? Wrong. Now that school is back I have to wake up around 6:30 and I'd go to sleep around 12. Which could be considered around the average amount of sleep the normal 11th grader would get.

So why the actual fuck am i falling asleep at 9-10 and waking up at 1 and then being forced to stay awake for about 4 or 5 more hours before I have the option to actually go do something. By that I mean, why am I  Sitting here staring at my ceiling till 6 in the morning waiting for the rest of the continent to wake the fuck up????

I love sleep because I like to dream. Dreams give meaning to sleep for me and I have beautiful dreams. I'll dream of going of on a quest and winning a fierce battle of life or death. I could have a dream about hanging out with friends I haven't been able to see in a while and its us just chilling watching TV. Snuggling with a crush and having a conversation with them. Or reliving a argument but that time I actually said the good comeback.

But yes I do have nightmares,  there mostly of crashing a car or falling to my death, and the weird stray one of watching my family get killed by a psychotic person. So just your normal nightmares but those rarely happen so there not a big deal for me.

So getting back to the reason I decided to write this.... uh...... do any of yall know what is happening with my sleep and why it's being difficult. Is this stress related or am I just a little more depressed than usual. If you have a suggestion I'd love to hear it so like..... comment or text me if you feel its to personal.

Also i ment to say this earlier in the chapter but uh... if you are also having sleep problems you can talk about them here and I'll try to talk to you about it.

Anyway I'm gonna probably go read a fanfic to pass the time. Later!!