to age in a world full of...

Part 2

"good morning Mrs.Williams" I heard as I walked past the mast majority of faces walking past me, giving a courtesy smile I hurriedly made my way to my seat with my head down

"Jaden!" amelia shouted out to me as I approached my desk, waving at me eagerly as I dropped my bag on the floor, "what's my name" she looked at me smirking widely; "uh amelia?" giving her a strange look and chuckling a bit  

"No!" she pointed at me "well yes but no", getting up placing her hand on my shoulder "I finally found a good-paying job that's close to Springville" she smiled in relief as she faced me 

shes so beautiful.. brunette, nice lips, perfect jawline

her eyes sparkling in ease as she searched for a reaction from me, she's been searching for a new job for the longest since she has 4 kids and lives 1 hour away from her home; this is the first time in a long time I've seen her this relaxed 

I'm happy for her..but 

I smiled and embraced her in a hug, a part of me felt like I was kind of forcing it, " Good job amelia, sadly you're leaving me though but I'm happy for you"

she sniffled as she hugged me, I felt guilty for the jealously that was spurring inside me, letting go I looked at her pink stained eyes as she wiped away the remaining tears that were on her cheeks  

she stared at my face in oddity, I blushed in embarrassment gazing away from her Inspection, "what is it?" I turned my face away looking down at the ground 

"well you seem a bit.. down" she eyed me in concern "is something wrong love?"

looking up slightly taken aback I smiled at her, "I'm just tired"

dale hurt you and it's your fault idiot 

"you sure? you seem to be looking off to space" smiling at me reassuringly "if you need someone to talk to, I'm here you know...you can tell me anything"

I can't though... why can't you?... I don't know

"thank you amelia," I said as I sat down at my desk putting my headset on clicking on my first client, "hello welcome to tech co how may I assist you today"

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 picking my bag up, I clocked out after waving at amelia in adieu making my way towards the door, "Jaden" I felt a light tap on my shoulder; turning around I came face to face with William

I fixated myself and smiled "hi William", he looked at me sweetly looking down at my chin towards my forehead, as if examing my face, "how you been?" he asked crossing his hands against his brawny chest

stop it your married 

I looked away slightly not wanting to make eye contact " it's been alright, just going by it day by day I guess" I laughed slightly

 he leaned towards me, "you sure?"

I felt my heartbeat and immediately knew that I had to leave..he's so hot and so nice to me, compared to dale...

I shook the thoughts away "well I have to hurry, dales waiting for me" I chuckled 

he backed away slightly smiling "right, it was nice talking to you" he stated as he started examining my face once again, I slightly turned my gaze towards his as I caught myself binded inside his eyes, I felt relaxed and wanted to hug him

William... I knew him since freshmen year of high school, we didn't talk much but I did like him at the time, we started talking in junior year and became friends since; I heard a rumour that he liked me but I doubt a guy like that would go for me so I never pursued it... it's not like it matters now anyway 

" Well alrighty then, bye" I waved as I made my way towards my vehicle, he gestured a nod as I turned away from him, click clack click clack the sound of my heels annoyed me as I made it to my car, getting in and making my way home 

I unlocked the door to my house and went inside, placing the keys on the counter, I went in the bathroom and took my clothes off, looking at the mirror I lifted up the role in my stomach and stared at it in dejection 

I wish I was slim thick 

I deleted Instagram due to the amount of jealousy that spurred seeing the gorgeous bodies and how happy people acted with their life

the bathroom door opened as dale walked in, I covered myself with a towel 

"Why are you covering up?" he tugged at the towel " I'm your husband", pulling at it more as he manoeuvred his body close to mine, roughly kissing my neck as I feel the cool wetness against my skin as he removes his lips after each kiss 

"I'm tired dale" placing my palms on his chest, telling the truth on the amount of energy I withheld throughout the day, he kept kissing me as he pulled the towel away, placing his chest against my bare chest while roughly cupping my c cups

"hmm baby your so sexy" he whispered against my ear as he licked and sucked the tip of my nipples

I pushed him away with more power than I should have "dale I said I'm tired!" I stated in vexation

looking at me in irritation, he turned away giving a hushed whisper "ugly bitch", making his way out the bathroom; slamming the door.. ugly bitch? did I hear him correctly, I felt myself holding in a sob as I stared at myself in the mirror in disgust

dirty, used, no one loves you

I gripped my hands on my hair as if wanting to yank it out. be nice to yourself... "impossible" I whispered at myself