Ayano aishi (childhood story)

My earlier memories, I remember hospital,doctors and examination.
I was broken,the doctors try to fix me
And my parents try to explain what was wrong with me.They try to explain why I am different from other
People.But I didn't understand.I heard
The doctors said they could fix me.They said I will be a normal person or lives in normal life.

      As I grow older,I can't understand what was wrong with me.I saw other children became happy,sad and angry.But I never felt these things.the only I felt was empty and incomplete.
My father try everything to help me.
But my mother,she was nothing like my father at all,she said  that she was like me when she was child.She told me that one day you will meet someone special.My father Don't want to listen to my mother's word.

       He just wants a normal child more than anything in this world.He try everything to make me happy.But nothing works.i don't want my father worry about me anymore.so I being act like other children.i pretending to be normal.My father was happy,we finally became a normal family.

      But I think he knows, down at his heart,I was only pertending. At school,the other children bully me because I was strange to them.I realize if  i to be like other,I was have to act like other children. I start to be normal and bully stop.i learn everything easy if I force myself to be pretending like other children.

   I pretending to be normal almost every hour on everyday.i pretending to be friends with people.I pretending to care to people.But that all fake,i only thing i felt is emptiness.As I grow older,I want to experience life like other people.I try everything to make me feel something.But nothing works.
No matter what I did,no matter how extremely I couldn't not feel anything.

      My mother's always the same,one day you will meet someone special.
I remember the word everyday.The only reason for me to life is meeting
who can fix me and complete.And one
day...

   I found him.i must not lose him,I must protect him,I must make him mine I must not let anyone take him,
I need him,he is everything,

                 HE WILL BE MINE
                 He have no choice.