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• 4.Blame Yourself •

Jamiah

I woke up with a headache and to an empty bed...

I grabbed some Tylenol and downed a few
drinking some water after it. I exhaled and got out the bed heading to the shower..it was still early as fuck. I know everybody is sleeping...

I did my morning routine and picked out something quick to wear, nothing fancy. I exhaled loudly looking in the mirror...my eyes were puffy from crying all night.

"This is my worse nightmare." I said to myself in the mirror before walking off. It's not fair to anyone, not Jahseh, not the child, not myself. I blame the mother and Jahseh's dumb ass for not wrapping up...

I can't believe this man has cheated on me time and time again and was dumb enough to go raw in a bitch. He told me there wasn't anymore bitches and that I knew about them all. He's so stupid! I grabbed my cones and sparked one stepping out onto my balcony watching the sun come up.

I relaxed as much as I could before heading in to start breakfast...I got down the steps and seen everyone sprawled out all over my living room. Liquor bottles and pizza boxes everywhere, this the usual for them..

I ignored it all rolling my eyes heading into the kitchen. I pulled everything out and got started.

25 mins later I was taking the biscuits out and buttering them. I place all the food on the counter and poured another mimosa for myself...I feel so much better now.

I looked online at the new Chrome Hearts drop and ordered a bunch of shit on Jahseh's credit card which I had saved on my Apple Pay. He added himself months ago I just never used it..

"$5k dassit?" I shrugged and went to another website ordering up a bunch of other shit charging his card again.

$12k is a better number. He better be lucky my fingers hurt. I sat at the counter watching tv and laughing at Dave Chappelle.

"Fuck yo couch nigga!" I said imitating Dave in the Rick James skit. I was laughing my ass off..

"Good Morning ma." My baby girl smiled at me as she walked over hugging me.

"Hood morning beautiful. How'd you sleep?" I smiled at her.

"Not good, the energy is off in this house. I had to cleanse the entire house last night with my sage just to get some rest." I looked at her trying not to be obvious..she's so spiritual like me. S ml

"Baby girl come here." I wrapped my arm in hers as she stood beside me eating a piece of turkey bacon.

"Thank you for cleansing the house, we needed that seriously baby. I love you and I don't want you to worry about shit okay?" I cupped her cheek pushing her curls behind her ear.

"Y'all always say that but mama I'm 18. I'm not a little baby anymore. I'm gonna worry you and dad didn't even sleep in the same bed, I heard y'all arguing."

"Baby girl I said what I said. Now eat up, today might be a long day." I kissed her cheek and she nodded to me still eating and sitting beside me.

I felt arms around my neck and smelled my son's cologne I gifted him for his 14th birthday.

"Hey baby, you smelling good and looking handsome this early morning. Where you headed?"

"Me and Laysia going to iHop with her family." Yume smiled looking so happy..b-but I made breakfast.

"I made your favorite baby, my breakfast is better than ihop." I pouted.

"Thank ma, I'll eat it for lunch I promise." He went over messing with his sister stealing her biscuit.