It Was Always You 》Rodrick Heffley fanfic

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And with those six words my heart sinks. He will probably not want to be around me anymore because I kissed him and didn't remember it. He probably thinks I am so pathetic because I had to be taken care of like a child. What if I caused him to finish his set early? God this is the end. I feel tears well up in my eyes as my middle finger traces the rim of my mug. I take a deep breath and look up.

"Okay."

He looks down then back up, "I need to know, why did you drink so much? You had us all worried. Hell Ben and I got so worried we finished early because we couldn't stand the thought of someone like pulling you to the side and us losing you."

The tears stream from my eyes as I look at him, "Oh no no no Cassie please don't cry. I'm not mad, don't worry. Please." He reaches out and grabs my hand. He looks reassuringly into my eyes, "I promise Cass I'm not mad. We were worried. I'm sorry I didn't mean to make you cry."

Softly I say, "I don't know what I was thinking. That's the thing." I look down and pull back my hand. I massage my thumb into the palm of my other hand.

Our food comes and our conversation ends. We both seem to stuff food in our mouths, but are only met with hiccups and groans moments later. We go back to trivial things, but the mood shifts in a moment. He looks at me for a moment longer than I normally catch him doing. He clears his throat. We meet eyes. Time slows and the diner grows quiet. He takes a deep breath, and then the check comes. He laughs as I quickly grab it and slide my card in there. I give it back before the moment comes again. He reaches for my hand and I don't hesitate. "Cassandra,' he smiles, "I am in love with you." My eyes widen and my breathing hitches. I slightly laugh and he looks confused. "Good joke Rodrick." He is taken aback before he sighs. "I'm not joking. I knew I felt something when we met and you fell on me, you took my breath away. And when you came to check on me at the party and we went to the park. Hell I haven't been like that to anyone. And then the other night when we were dancing and you looked me in the eyes as we ended the song, I could have kissed you then. Then the party. Cassie I was so worried about you. When you kissed me that night. It felt right. I could have kept doing it. I didn't want to stop. Cassie I have never felt this way for anyone, but it feels right." I let the words set in. He loves me. Rodrick loves me? Rodrick Heffley, the boy who I fell for at first sight, loves me. All I am able to say at that moment in "Deadass?" He laughs. "Deadass." The waitress comes back with the check and we head back to the van. We both get in and he looks at me almost concerned. "Cassie be honest. How do you feel about me?" I look him in the eyes, "Rodrick. I literally fell for you when I first saw you. When I looked at who I had fallen on my heart skipped a beat. When you said girlfriend my heart sank to my ass. Watching you play made me so happy to watch you do what you love. When we went grocery shopping it felt so natural. When you disappeared from the party and I literally jumped at the opportunity to go check on you. At the park I literally felt so special that you took me where you haven't ever taken Ben. Like bro what the fuck? And the night we were dancing in your room." I pause for a second and look down. Softly I say, " I felt like I fought everything single ounce of me to not kiss you then, but obviously I didn't hold out much longer." He softly grabs my face with his hand. He pulls me close and kisses the top of my forehead. "Cassie?" I nod my head slightly. "Would you like to be my girlfriend?" I am taken aback for a second, "Yes!" A smile forms across my face and one comes across his face. We both seem to share the same thought as we lean in. My eyes close and we draw near.

At the last moment his phone rings. "Sorry." He reaches for it and semi-annoyed he says, "Barf breath what do you want?" I hear Greg softly through the phone say, "Where are you?" Rodrick rolls his eyes, "With Ben why?" There is a laugh from the other end of the phone. "Why is your van in front of Lee-anne's?" His face drops as he looks to the side and I see not only his family, but mine. My mom raises her eyebrow as my dad looks a little annoyed. I exit the van and come up to them. "I can explain. We were going to get breakfast and he uh had something on his eyelash." My mom laughs and softly says, "Mhm that's convenient. I've used that one before." By this point Rodrick has slid out of the car and is dealing with his mom. I look back at my parents and Jasmine is laughing so hard from where she is standing. "Anyway I guess we are gonna go eat. Just be home by two okay? You are helping with dinner." I nod yes. "The Heffley's are coming over for dinner." I look back at Rodrick and he throws a little smile. I slink back into the van and wait for Rodrick. He hopps in after a minute. "Sorry about that." He smiles slightly. "How bad did you get it?" I ask. "Ya know my mom said she called it so my dad now owes her five bucks, and so that pretty much sums it up. Oh and apparently I am coming to yours for dinner tonight." I nod yes and he puts the keys in the ignition. "I just gotta be home by two." He licks his lips for a second. "Two? We got an hour, but trust me." My face turns a little red, "I trust you." He drives for a little until we are at a vaguely similar park. "Why does this look familiar?" He laughs, "It's the park Cassie. Where I knew fully, but didn't know how to say." He checks the time on his phone and sighs, "looks like we are headed back." I snicker, "Yeah that doesn't look suspicious. The two teens in a panel van pulling up to a park then immediately pulling out to leave." He looks at me and I can tell that went over his head. We pull out and head home and Can I Call You Tonight by Dayglow comes over the radio. I can't keep my eyes off of him as I watch him focus on the road. He licks his lips and smirks as his eyes shift to me for a split second. "Whatcha thinking about?" He waits a beat before saying, "How I want this song to play as dance under the stars." I blush instantly and cover my mouth. He panics, "Did I say something wrong?" I shake my head no, "No that's really really cute." His freckles raise as he smiles. We pull up in front of his place and I grab my stuff from the van. He walks me to my front door and I turn to him. We look each other in the eyes and I want to kiss him so bad, but I need to make up for last night. I kiss him on the cheek and step inside. "I'll see you later stinky." He pouts, "I took a shower yesterday idiot." I jokingly roll my eyes as his smile returns. "I'm teasing you." He simply says "I know baby-girl." before leaving my porch. Baby-girl. That made me melt into a puddle. That sounded so nice coming from him. I listen for his front door to close before closing mine. I run upstairs and open my blinds to see him doing the same. He goes for his window and I do the same. "Miss me already?" He asks. I flip him off and he laughs. He moves from his window and I go to take a shower. Once I'm done I throw on a pair of mom jeans and a random graphic tee. I grab my guitar and the notebook with cords and almost fully play Scotty Doesn't Know without looking at the sheet. I pull out my phone and record a small section then send it to Ben and Chris. Ben is the first to respond and it is positive.

Ben: That sounds good CAss. Chris and I are comin ovr for practice right now if you wanna play it live.

Me: Bettttt

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