FOS.
I'm dumbfounded. Hindi ko alam kung anong iisipin. Am I crazy? .
I pinched my self so I probably not.
Anong ibig niyang sabihin sa hindi ko nadidiskubre ang kung anong mayroon sa sarili ko?, well ano bang mayroon? ngipin? mata? ilong?. ANO??!. Wait? dibdib ba na maliit?, eh, alam ko na yun matagal na, paulitulitin ba naman ni Von, nagpantig na ang tenga ko.
"Miss ko na si papa..." Out of my thought, I voice out.
Kumakain kaya siya sa tamang oras?. Baka nakatitig nanaman yun sa litrato ni mama.
My birthday is coming and the thought of celebrating it in this cage made me feel dull.
I planned to dance my father in my 18th birthday, laugh with Von and invite lots of people. But that plan stays as that, because I was pent in this fearsome castle, slammed in a four edge concrete cage.
I wiped my tears, it fell without me , noticing it. I missed him, I missed Von, I missed my mother.
One week, an intricate week.
"Si papa...ay mahal ni mama...
si Fos ang anak nila, masaya dahil si Fos ay maganda at mahal sila."
I cried even more when I sing my song to my father whenever he has nightmares. Tapos tatawa nalang siya kasi di naman daw ako maganda.
I wish I could see his face, smiling.
I was in a middle of my bereavement when I halted. Someone came in.
I thought it was him again but I was wrong.
Walang tao, pero bumukas ang pinto, nakaramdam ako ng takot when a cold breeze embrace me. Unusual because I always feel khamsin.
May multo ba?. Eii! nasa kalagitnaan ako ng pagiyak tapos saka pa magmumulto yang damuhong kung sino man yan.
I eke on the edge of the cage because of too much coldness I can't bare it.
I rubbed my palm to each other and place it on my cheeks to ease coldness.
I'm wearing my old clothes, wala pa akong palit palit at ligo manlang kahit toothbrush o hilamos, yeah this is life!. Hihilingin ko na lang siguro sa muling pagpasok ng lalaking yun kung puwedeng maki cr.
And where is that guy by the way?, I've been feeling so hungry and hoping for him to come. but he's gone and nowhere to find.
"MAY TAO BA DYAN?" I shouted.
"PENGE NAMANG PAGKAIN OH! TSAKA JACKET! O KAYA TUWALYA! KAWALAWAAN BASAHAN NALANG BASTA MAKAPAL HA! SALAMAT!" . Who wouldn't right? I want to stay alive for my father and Von because I know they are waiting for me.
But hours passed, no food and clothes.
If they have a planned to kill me, I hope the don't have. I know they are lunatics but I'm begging for my life.
Hours after hours passed with the coldness and hunger I decided to lie in a cold floor, I hugged my self.
"You can do it Fos, maybe tommorow you'll taste freedom." I close my eyes .
"Ahh! baliw ang tatay!" I heard lots of kids teasing a young girl, while crying she keep on humming and covering her ears.
"Baliw na rin yan!. Pamilyang mga baliw! dapat sayo ipatapon na, salot!" they started to throw small rocks to the young girl who was just sitting on the ground, humming and crying.
She gasp when a huge rock hit her forehead that made it bleed. But she remain in her position.
Not once.
Twice, but many times a rocks hit her face and body but she remain in her position.
