My Midnight Diary

Falling Apart

If anytime in life you felt this emotion to part away from any anybody or from any relationship, you can understand the feeling I m trying to deliver here a little better.
Or
You can understand it anyway!
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The love you showed was full of colours
I'd never see or I had ever thought of
Priceless for me to give you back
All I thought that it's how I am, that you loved me for.

Little did I know the dark shades of this pallete
You stroked it deep in my soul and test me as a challenge.
Was that a sign I didn't see coming;
Because, now my walls are painted by your colours only.

The contrast is obstrusive at this moment.
You're getting a bit cryptic day by day.
Distorting the hues in me point by point,
I am fine with it, only if you stay passionate.

Things are unexpected these days
You don't seem the same,
In the name of love & passion;
We are now falling in disdain.

Are we still going right or we're just fine!
Is this the relation we are trying to built up, Slicing each other' words with more harsh words
Questioning the reality of our precious love.

Yes, the change I wish now, is not what I used to believe in;
Whatever I believed in was our chosen destiny.

So don't challenge me on something you know I won't do,
Because it's dreading to see myself lose in front of you.

Will you understand me if I refuse to hold on?
Want to run till our dreams are all torn down?
The diplomacy driven lecture is not the solution we need.
Why won't you understand the problem, it's way deeper than you think.

Blaming each other is what we do to strive lately,
Drawing hell borders around us won't be divine.
This is not the kind of togetherness I wished for,
Accusations of not loving enough is just another filthy scarecrow.

For you I was never the better
For you it was always been the same
You don't see me breaking down in pieces,
Oh baby for you..
It's always have been the same.

Most of the time, you don't see me crying,
Most of the time, I would smile for you;
This love feels heavier on my shoulder,
Will you still save me after knowing this? Can you still be my lover?

I don't even have this courage to say I want to lead this way,
The self love I should've practice is all at stake.
Did you really wanted to help me out in living a life?
Because the numbness of my heart is forcing me to wreck.

There were days when you used to take my breath away;
Now your act of love only chokes my throat.
Oh god, I am losing my faith!
That is why..

From the day-to the night
I don't get any reasons to stay awake
Your words wouldn't help me out now, I've already put my future on bet.

I just want to be happier
Would you let me go?
I don't want to stay any longer
I don't want to swim along the flow.