Elrebnisse

Chapter 17 | Angst, As They Call It [2/2]

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Makoto Ranmaru (yes, in this chapter too) looked upon his family's house, holding a bag of things he just bought from earlier.

He opened the door to be welcomed by a block of people. "Hi guys!"

A red headed girl went up to him "Hi gremlin man!"

"Hey suli"

Then another red head ran up to him "hey bro! Where's Hikoro?" He hugged him.

"Oh silly! Of course at work!"

Makoto Ranmaru's  POV

It wasn't a big family I was in, it was a gigantic family! And yes, I have ten siblings, not including the ones that aren't here.

I raced up the stairs after getting asked too much questions.

"Daaaaaad! Ni-san bought alot of stuff!" Oh why right now Mero.

I went down the stairs not expecting a big scene of course.

Mero got ignored "Dad!"

My father, Teromi Ranmaru, was currently  reading a baseball magazine. "Makoto, don't do that again okay?" He scolded not even looking up from his magazine.

I frowned "yes Dab-"

What the hell!? Oh, wait...

Although even if I said it wrong, by the looks of it he didn't even hear me say 'Dab'.

Before Mero-chan could even complain, I walked up the stairs looking at the other following stairs in front of me.

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As I arrived, well, I unboxed- no, I mean- I unplasticked the things I bought in which, was a big variety of art supplies I could probably use for another drawing. But even with that, one thing caught my eye.

I never bought guitar strings!

"Why are you here!" I whisper yelled in a both a sad and a sore tone.

This made me stupidly remember all memories, and I have to add the bad ones. Ugh...

Back then when I was five, my dad bought me a guitar, I don't remember what type of guitar it was but I don't care anymore...

Six months after giving me a guitar..

"Dad! Dad!" I shook my dad's hand. "I'm gonna play a song!" I shouted in enthusiasm.

"Makoto, I don't have time today..." My happy, enthusiastic, and manic face got torn into pieces and got replaced by a very hopeless frown.

That happened a lot of times before...
But two years after that...

I was my Dad's birthday!

I drew a anime kinda thing that I thought looked like my Dad. I also prepared a song I learned online.

"Hey Da-"

"Oh thank you Hikoro!"

A smile formed my face as I know he will like mine too. "Daddy Happy Birthda-"

"Sorry Makoto I'm very tired" fuck.

The grip on my guitar started loosely disappearing. I crumbled the drawings in my other hand. Blinking was the only thing that stopped the tears coming out.
A frown was being forced away on my face. The world I had was now just plain ash.

"But-"

"Hi honey!"

I heard my mom grin on the phone.

"Happy birthday-!"

The guitar started loosing off my hand until there was a loud and deafening bang that covered my ears. The swift sound of a sob escaped my mouth. A whisper of sadness became a shout of Adornitis.

"Oh wait honey" I could tell that Dad has a worried expression, and he was worried about- "Shhh.. you're gonna wake up everyone" he whispered that same sadness. "I think you woke up all your siblings" he went to my little sister's room.

I felt my feet get lighter. I felt like I needed to die. I wanted to scream. I wanted to include myself. I need to shut down that happiness. I needed to... change.

Then a slight red head peeped in one of the rooms. "Mak, are you okay?" my seventeen year-old nii-San grabbed the broken guitar. He pulled me into his room and let me lean on him. "Don't worry I'll figure this out" he grabbed one of the strings. "Don't worry.. it's okay..." he pulled me into a hug.

That was Hikoro-san, he's currently one of Nihon's Department of Health and Justice secretaries. Well... right now.

"Fuck!" I shouted in a 'quiet' way. "I'm not ignored. I'mnotignored I'mnot-Ignored!" I kept rambling until-

"Hey, quiet, we're eating" Oh well why am I here? Guess that really snapped me out of my thoughts. "What were you talking about anyway?"

"I was saying I'm not ignored" I say regretting what I was thinking about. I mean, I guess that's what Sincere means. "Sorry.." I sighed and looked down at my plate.

"No it's fine" Yuuichi-Nii reassured. "C'mon, eat up"

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I flopped back on my bed slowly dying down to sleep.

"Sorry I don't have time today"

"I'm tired"

"Happy Birthda-"

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I jolted awake as I heard that one last word, and I looked over to a clock on my door.

5:59

Well I know it's pretty early, but I don't wanna be the last person in the shower so I stood up not having a second thought about stretching.

"Hi bro"

I closed the door behind. "Yeah hi" I then looked at the stairs in front of me. "What's poppin'?"

"Well, bacon"

I walked down looking at my brother's plate. "And eggs" I added with a sleepy grin.

My brother then looked away from me. I walked up to him and rested my eye lids, feeling a cold breeze brush through my hair.

"Ugh"

My eyes shot open, "What's wrong?" I said slowly closing my eyes again.

My big brother, Yuuichi, groaned silently even if I can hear him do so. "Nothing, I'm just tired" he walked away from me.

I opened my eyes again, this time with seriousness. "Don't always use that as a excuse" I whispered before he could go any farther.

I could feel him looking back at me with shock, fear, and amusement. "..." could hear his footsteps echo farther away from me.

"Stop giving me that look"

Chap 17