"Some memories never leave your bones, like salt in the sea: they become part of you - and you carry them" - April Green
I wake up to the sound of beeping. I have an IV in my arm and I realize that I'm in a hospital. Then it hits me. The memories of this afternoon come flooding back. I look around my little hospital room. There are machines all around me, and to my right I see my mother sitting in an uncomfortable looking chair. A nurse walks in.
"Hey! You're awake. Shortly a psychiatrist will pop up on this machine and talk to you okay?"
I nod my head.
"If you need anything, just ask!"
She walks out, leaving behind a tablet with wheels that reminds me of plankton's computer wife from SpongeBob. I turn to my mom.
"How are you feeling?", she asks me.
"I've been better," I reply.
"I'm really tired though," I continue.
"Well, that's what happens when you down about a quarter of Benadryl, Motrin, and Mucinex," she answers.
"Hey now, let's not forget the 70% isopropyl alcohol, and the 2 aspirins," I sarcastically reply.
"By the way, your dad texted. He says that he loves you and misses you," she tells me.
"Tell him I said I miss and love him too," I reply.
"Are you hungry?" she asks.
"Nah, hospital food sucks."
"I can go out and get food, if you'd like?"
The idea of being alone in a hospital room surrounded by beeping machines and strangers coming in and out, with no one I know to support me isn't a particularly appealing thought.
So I say, "Nah it's okay I'm not that hungry anyways"
"Okay, well if you get hungry, your dad can stop by with food"
"Okay, sounds good"
We sit in silence for a moment before I ask, "So, what happens now?"
"Well, they want you to talk to a psychiatrist before anything else happens"
"I'm actually about to pass out, like I'm that tired. Can't I talk to them later, or at least take a little nap?"
"No, the psychiatrist should be on the call soon"
"okay"
We wait in silence for a while until the tablet lights up with a person's face. The camera attached starts rotating towards me.
"Hi Valentina," the doctor says.
"Hi," I reply.
"So, I just have a few questions for you and then we can proceed from there"
"Okay," I respond wearily.
"So, I looked at your file-"
I have a file now? I think to myself.
"- and I think it's best to start with why did you do it?"
He doesn't give me a chance to respond.
"You know the action you took was deadly, correct? It sounds like this was a suicide attempt, we take these very seriously," He pauses. "Did you do this knowing it could kill you, with the intent of harming yourself?"
I nod my head, guiltily. He speaks with my mom for a while about school and my feelings.
"Well, it seems that the best course of action is to send her to a facility, where she can get the help she needs," the doctor concludes.
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I Promise it Gets Better
Teen FictionValentina had the perfect life, or so it seemed. One day she does the worst thing she could do and ends up in the hospital. She struggles with her mental health for a while and doesn't know what to do. She tries so hard to stay strong but it's hard...