Just Friends

Part 3- before and after

BEFORE~

"hey Liv what ya doing this weekend" i heard a male voice coming from behind me "nothing Gaege why" i asked forgetting i had a hair appointment "i would like to take you out on a date" he answered "oh wait i suddenly remember i have to go and get my hair done.  Sorry big man but i guess you'll be going on that date by yourself" i said patting him on the shoulder walking away towards the front doors and going into my dorm 

"ughh fuckk why does everyone have to be so annoying" i said aloud "because the men here dont know how to take a no" my dorm mate said "yeah you know what Dominic i really like talking to you when we do talk" i said and laughed and he just stayed silent looking at his phone "welp im going to go get coffee want anything?" i asked him "uh sure surprise me" he said looking up at me and giving me a smile "ayeee theres that signiture 'Dominic Harrison' smile i hear to much about" i said and laughed picking up my keys and earbuds "bye domino" i said leaving the room and putting one earbud in playing a random playlist and i heard a loud voice singing

 "my daddy put a gun to my head, said 'if you kiss a boy im gonna shoot you dead' so i tied him up with gaffer tape and locked him in a shed then i went to the garden and fucked my best friend" and i started humming to it until i learned the lyrics and i was just listening to it i haven't left the front of the dorm "my high hopes are getting low because these people are so old, the way they think about it all if i tried i would never know my high hopes are getting low but i know ill never be alone its alright we'll survive CAUSE PARENTS AIN'T ALWAYS RIGHT" i yelled screaming the last bit louder than i did before and finally walking to my car getting in and putting the key in the ignition and driving off listening to more of the guys music who i learned to be named YUNGBLUD 

TIME SKIP TO WHEN SHES BACK AT THE DORM WITH COFFEE 

"Honey im homeee" i said walking in with the coffee and i handed him his cup "well hello m'lady" he joked with me and i started laughing so did he 'hes so adorable when he wants to be' i thought 'no no no Olivia you cant be thinking things like that' i told myself taking a sip of my iced coffee

 "so i heard you yelling the lyrics to one of YUNGBLUD's songs.  Your supposed to listen to so shit like barbie i mean look at what your wearing you are the real life barbie" (outfit above)he started "your beautiful your giggly and all preppy like i dont even know how you do it at this shit show" he finished 

"well i dont have to be all dark and emo to listen to that kind of music you fucking dick you know your not much unlike the other guys here" i said tearing up a bit "you know i fucking hate having to be all preppy and happy because in reality you and nobody else knows whats going on in my life and i dont have a good one i came here to escape the hell we call reality and if i didnt i would probably not be here right here right now" i finished grabbing things for the showers and left to go shower but before i left the room he started singing one of YUNGBLUD's songs and i also heard a guitar and i stood there and listened to the gracefulness of his voice

 its so calm and sad but at the same time sweet it made me feel like.. he understood me like i had known him forever and i started silently crying when all of a sudden my nose started bleeding

 "i- fuck!" i exclaimed holding my hand under my nose "uh what do you need ill get it" he asked while getting up "uh" i started thinking and the first thing that came to mind was a tampon "a tampon! get me a tampon please" i said trying not to breath so i didnt end up swallowing the blood because that is gross he handed me a tampon and i moved my hand but he put his under my nose so the blood would spill in his hands i wiped my hand on my shirt and opened the tampon and stuck it in my nose and Dominic just laughed at me "what" i asked smiling "you look funny"

 he smiled widely and then i smiled and we just stared into each others eyes closely and i got lost in his green orbs and all of a sudden he grabbed my face with the bloody hand and kissed me.  I kissed back putting my hand on his face putting the other hand in his messy hair and  his other hand on my waist pulling me closer then he rubbed his bloody hand in my hair pulling apart from me for breath "your are truly so beautiful Dom dont let anyone tell you other wise" he said and smiled a sweet smile and i looked down 

"to think that the guy i have had a crush on for the last five years just kissed me" i said not realizing i just said it "i- fuck im sorry i uh i should go" i said realizing what i said and walked to the showers after getting my things 'fuck fuck fuck fuck' i said mentally and i kept getting these thoughts that i didnt want to get 'he only kissed you because he felt bad' 'he hates you' 'you are nothing' ' you are worthless' 'you are ugly who would ever like you better yet love you' 'you will forever be alone' 

and all of a sudden i screamed, i screamed my heart out, i screamed until i couldnt scream anymore and after i did i slid down the wall and cried under the water of the shower i cried for a while but i realized that other people needed to shower so i turned off the water and put on the cropped band shirt i had and the tie dye shorts i had with my lacy underwear and got out putting the slides i had and drying my hair with the towel and picking my dirty clothes off of the floor and walking to my dorm hesitating to go through the door. 

 but when i finally did Dominic was sleeping in my bed so i went over to his but there was a bunch of stuff on it and i didnt feel like cleaning it at the moment so i turned around and there he was staring at me

 "oh uh im sorry did i wake you"i asked looking down "no its fine, love" he answered turning to the other side patting the bed "come lay down, i wont hurt you" he said laughing and i layed with him

 "hey Dominic.. could you sing to me" i asked and i felt him nod "doctor says that im so lonely, a mistake in the painting of my family, but that big smudge is what i love give me a grenade and ill tape it to my face.  getting drunk a quarter to 1 cause my dad is the geezer in the keys of my mum, you put it in my mouth, im gonna bite down, if that ain't normal than the pope is a right clown" he started singing and playing with my hair and i fell asleep to the sound of his voice 

THE NEXT MORNING

I woke up and Dominic wasnt there but i didnt pay any mind to it so i got up and got ready (outfit) 

i grabbed my keys and made my way to the hair salon so i can get my hair done how i liked it (hair)

AFTER