This is a story about Joseph's suicidal attempts. The feelings he feels deep down inside. Joseph is a coward, but he's determined to find a way to make himself forget about Sebastian. Sebastian Castellanos is married. He's married to Myra and they have a daughter. Joseph Oda is alone. His feelings for Sebastian drive him insane, to a point where he doesn't know what to do. He feels that whenever he sees Sebastian smile to the thought of Myra, he'll just jump. Or step in front of the subway. Joseph Oda is in love with his best friend, but he's suicidal to a point where he might be hopeless.