they always said if you want the rainbow you have to deal with the rain but what if you went trough hell instead and then when you finally reach the end of the rainbow you realise that this was the wrong side of it and that the gold was on the other side of it i wanted a calm life where money was not a problem where i can go to work and buy a cheep car and then have a husband and a family and we will grow old together till we di in each other's arms but that was just plan b for me i was more ambitious than the normal people i wanted a full time career in acting i tried everything, i even applied to be a model to start from there i left my house and my family and my sick sister to be able to help them with the money but it was decided that it was never an easy way nor it was hard it you get noticed by an actor or director then you are there i was never there i was fatter than what was suppose to be a model, like what the hell does they eat to be a size 2 ? I asked this this question once and i was surprised but the answer, promise you, you do not want to know it and nor in the acting part was i lucky, in the movies that i casted i was shown in it with only my back nothing more they liked my back more than my face, no wonder but this is life and like i said if you want to deal with the rain you have to go through the rainbow wait what, sorry these are not the words i even messed up the description of my own story, well you know what i mean