My feet took me to no where in particular, I just walked, I walked and walked. I couldn't cry, I couldn't carry this pain on my shoulder anymore. I needed someone to help me with the burden on my shoulder. My legs hit the water but I continued to walk. The water got to my mid tigh but I continued to walk. I could see people in the background shouting, some were still busily doing what they were doing looking unconcerned, whatever sounds they were making was deaf to my ear. The water finally got to my throat. And then slowly I drowned, I felt the water enter my ears, my nose, my lungs. It hurt but this is what I wanted. I wanted to be out of this world, I wanted to go away so that I don't experience any heartache anymore Being in pain and feeling helpless is what no one ever wants. But I guess that was what Amber was destined for, but against all odds, against all logic SHE STILL HOPED.