Deep in his mind, Kayde is having to relive all his nightmares, all the trauma he sustained, all his fears and doubts. Facing the emotions he never wished to face, feeling the guilt in what he couldn't understand. Why tonight? Why now!? He ponders these thoughts as the shadows creep in closer and closer to him. When will the nightmares end? Also side note that I think is funny: The night prior to this they were getting drunk and doing Karaoke so the next day he woke up with a hangover and hardly any sleep, on top of all that he had to attend a meeting only to be told that they are going on a mission, but they have to leave Tyral behind. So Kayde wasn't having a good day XD