This is a story in which I explain the reason for my behavior and why I don't feel like a normal boy. (I wrote this experience because it is a relief for me, just as I know that there are other staff who have gone through worse or equal experiences to mine, that is why I published it more than anything, since I had planned to leave it saved, but it was I dare to publish it since I know that other people have gone through the same thing or worse.) I'm sorry if there are spelling mistakes or if it is not understood.