"if you are still single by the age of 28, marry me" I said out loud, proposing to the only man that ever gave me a sense of security, safety and the freedom to tune into my femininity. A part of me that i had given up on finding since all my mother taught me was how to be strong and hide my emotions, so that i wouldn't get burned the same way my father had left her scarred. "what did you say?" he replied, assuming he had heard wrong since this conversation was happening over the phone. "marry me, if you are still single by the age of 28", i said again. helping him confirm my words. "you mean three years from now?" "yup" "why do you want to marry me?, when you barely even know me?" I think that was when reality struck me a bit. i could feel the thoughts that were running amok begin to find reason in his words. 'yeah, why the fuck would you want to marry a man you barely know Pearl?' welcome to my first unrequited love. this book has no plot for now, i have no idea how its gonna come along. its just my thoughts put into words about a situation and how i am dealing with it. 05/18/24.