Loving Her (GirlXGirl)

"You know I never thought I would fall in love... All of my life I felt like I was incapable of doing so. I would like guys here and there but only for a short amount of time I'd still stay with them though even after my attraction and like for them left. I just wanted to feel something you know, I wanted to feel... loved. Or at least liked a whole lot.

Don't get me wrong I'm not insecure but I've just always wanted to feel that special kind of love. The one that gives you butterflies when that special someone texts, or when you see them a smile automatically appears onto your face and I didn't have that... until I met her. She gave me everything I was looking for and when I say everything I mean everything.

I didn't plan on meeting her though, I didn't even plan on falling in love with her.. or hurting her, but I did. I did and I regret it everyday. I regret falling in love with her, and I also regret meeting her I regret I even knew that she existed.

I wish I never met her because if I didn't I wouldn't be feeling all of this pain that I am feeling right now, I'd be happy... and she'd still be here."