Life with Jackson was always what it seemed, downs after downs after downs. Being with him was all I wanted, but he has changed and not for the good. He's out almost every night now, he's getting worse. I can't do it any longer, my mind tells me. But my heart reminds me of all memories we have together the goods and the bads. Dear Jackson, I want you to know that I will always love you. Emotionally, you are breaking me. I love you so much but I just can't do it anymore. So, here I am writing you the memories we had together to remind you of how good of a person you are. I believe in you Jackson, you've just got to try. Where do I begin how about the first time we met, August 16, 2015.