2Ptalia

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2Ptalia

Okay, I should just probably say this now. When I write stories, I just use them as a way to express my ideas or vent or whatever. They may be up permanently, but usually temporary. I just get writer's block or get bored, so sorry for the inconsistency or incontinuity. I can't handle the responsibility or don't have the time or ideas to continue things, so there's no point leaving stories up that probably won't be updated. I often take a hiatus, which is when I usually stop certain work 'cuz I get nervous when I leave them in the public doing nothing. Not that I'm gonna write something interesting and unpublish immediately after, but if I try and fail, it'll go but you probably won't notice anyway. Just don't expect much from me. :'3 My creativity just hits a brick wall sometimes and I only use this site to get my sanity by in life. =3=

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Ewewew, I'm just looking through my old unpublished stories and they make me cringe so muuuch. They have a hell of a lot more views and votes and comments than my more recent work, but I don't know why 'cuz my old stuff is horrible in my personal opinion. =v=" Although I should believe my followers' thoughts more…
          
          Man, I dunno what to do. People wanted updates for them but I keep getting serious writer's blocks too often and it makes me nervous when I read through my stories… I just…try to empathise as different readers, but each interpretation gets weirder and I worry that my messages aren't getting through well at all.
          
          I just assume that my anxiety makes me think that silence equals judgement. I am not confident in writing at all, sort of…'cuz I'm more of an illustrator than an author. So I'm very picky and edit my work way too much until I'm completely satisfied.
          
          Meh, at least I'm trying. XD This account only has fanfics, after all… (Yes, I have another account that's years old, but I abandoned it now 'cuz it's old and cluttered up with junk I don't wanna read nowadays. So I made this account to start afresh, but now I think that was pointless. I could always return there to write original stuff, and keep this one fanfic only…?)
          
          Oh well… I just wanna get through my exams first. Bloody school demotivates me so much, to be honest. I learn things (sometimes), but more often than not, I feel dumber the more I go there. Just…idiotic students and unhelpful teachers and BLEH. My hobbies are therapeutic and relieve my stress, but I just feel depressed most of the time due to my existential views. Pfft…