Ewewew, I'm just looking through my old unpublished stories and they make me cringe so muuuch. They have a hell of a lot more views and votes and comments than my more recent work, but I don't know why 'cuz my old stuff is horrible in my personal opinion. =v=" Although I should believe my followers' thoughts more…
Man, I dunno what to do. People wanted updates for them but I keep getting serious writer's blocks too often and it makes me nervous when I read through my stories… I just…try to empathise as different readers, but each interpretation gets weirder and I worry that my messages aren't getting through well at all.
I just assume that my anxiety makes me think that silence equals judgement. I am not confident in writing at all, sort of…'cuz I'm more of an illustrator than an author. So I'm very picky and edit my work way too much until I'm completely satisfied.
Meh, at least I'm trying. XD This account only has fanfics, after all… (Yes, I have another account that's years old, but I abandoned it now 'cuz it's old and cluttered up with junk I don't wanna read nowadays. So I made this account to start afresh, but now I think that was pointless. I could always return there to write original stuff, and keep this one fanfic only…?)
Oh well… I just wanna get through my exams first. Bloody school demotivates me so much, to be honest. I learn things (sometimes), but more often than not, I feel dumber the more I go there. Just…idiotic students and unhelpful teachers and BLEH. My hobbies are therapeutic and relieve my stress, but I just feel depressed most of the time due to my existential views. Pfft…