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downloaded this silly app just for the comfort of this place i called home. been feeling so down, i’m trying to get through what i’ve been feeling and dealing with lately but it’s so hard. i also regret feeling attached to the wrong people on here at times because i was slowly losing you by my side. now with you gone and only the option of people i found myself leaning towards because you were falling from my grasp i feel hopeless. no one’s really given me comfort like you ): your presence did so much. i remember saying i would walk the other half much stronger around the days you were leaving, but  so far i’m not really doing a good job. i had expectations of me doing well and i’m really funny for believing things would go smoothly but they’re really crazy rn esp in my head 

best friends forever 

it’s me, i am big booty bitch 

OMMF I LOVE YOU

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12:12 

happy 6 months my angel. i’m feeling anxious as i write this because i’m so overwhelmed with the thought of us separating and my mind is so cloudy, i’m not ready even though the day has come. thank you for everything though. these past 6 months with you have been the absolute best and i mean that with my whole entire heart. you’ve taken care of me at my worst so that you could embrace me when i was trying my best and sharing giggles with you along with the others. i’m gonna miss you so fucking much, i’ll always be looking back on our memories and thinking of you. gonna indulge myself in screenshots and old convos of ours to sleep with a smile on my face. it will be really hard without you if i’m being honest, i’ve gotten so attached and used to your presence, i’m afraid but at the same time i believe in myself and i will look after myself for you and also for myself. you’ve shown me the meaning of love and i will hold that close to my heart which is why i wanna try my best after this. i saw sparks when i was with you and i promise i’ll continue seeing them when i think of you

some things just make sense and one of those is you and i 

OOOH i love this song <3 it’s for you 

sad smile