Tem sido dias de escuridão, tem sido dias que uma das únicas coisas que se passa na minha cabeça é acabar com isso de uma vez, mas sabe quando parece que algo ainda te segura, uma mão invisível? 
          Mas eu não sei até quando essa força vai me deixar aqui, eu posso escorregar entre seus dedos em algum momento e ela não vai nem perceber.
          Eu não sei lidar com nada do que acontece aconteceu na minha vida, apenas me jogaram aqui e sem manual de instruções, então desesperadamente eu procuro por uma saída e parece que uma única que sempre esteve ali...
          Maior parte do tempo também fico em silêncio sobre...
          Eu tento respirar mas sinto que eu estou sufocando, eu não sei onde eu vou parar, eu não sei quando isso vai acabar, talvez isso que vai acabar comigo algum dia em algum momento...
          
          

Hey Chester, happy birthday sweetheart! I wrote everything that i needed today, i did everything I could do it today, I'm here as well wishing you a very happy birthday, i love you so much, miss you every day... Thank you for everything. ♥️

Almost four years, but still hurts like yesterday! Chester you know how much i miss you, but words can't bring you back, but i love you...

I missing you so much today, I really don't know what I should say right now, things change since you were gone, and you know what? I don't like when something changes. I don't know if someone knows about this, but I couldn't say goodbye yet can't let you go and to be honest I don't know if one day I will have stomach to do this. I had a hard time to accept that you wouldn't come back. Well I believe that you're close to us so I don't need talk about this you know how things were back then and what happened. 
          Almost two years and still hard, no worries most of the time I know how deal with it. 
          
          I miss your smile, miss your laughter, miss your voice and God knows how I miss you, and how much I love you, I really do. 
          
          Man it’s so weird how some events can change us a lot. On the way we think, to the way we dress or continue living our daily routines. It's just so weird how some events can change us, and not just for a month, two, not just to a year or two, but can change us for life. 
          
          You know I remember when I was a kid, and play around trying to sing every part of the songs, even I didn't know what I was saying, remember the I played a imaginary guitar, anyway some many good memories. 
          
          Dad used to put me to sleep listening to LP and jumping around the house. He just told me this year, I really didn't knew about this. I felt happy you know? I mean maybe I Ioved you guys since before I can remember. 
          
          It's going to be a hard day I know that, maybe it's going to be a hard weekend, but I know you will be here with me like you always did. 
          
          

Thanks for the votes