TW: VENT, INADEQUATE AID, PANIC ATTACKS IM NOT ADDING MORE IN FEAR OF BEING REPORTED.
So I've got a whole melting pot of issues, nothing is diagnosed because I avoid the doctor like the damn plague.
I've been pushed aside, had the things I struggle with on a daily basis be brushed off and passed off as overreactions by doctors and my parents alike.
A situation came up that made me extremely uncomfortable, as in its one of my biggest triggers on repeat. It took so much from me to ask someone to do something to minimize said trigger, because I already knew what their answer would be, because I knew how they'd react. But I asked anyway, got the same answer that I expected, and passive aggressive compromise.
I don't know what I expected.
I really don't.
The worst part is, I've been doing better, getting better, and then this damn thing made me backslide so badly, into old habits, constant fear and anxiety, and the same feeling that led to panic attacks.
And it's so hard to talk about my problems, that I think I'll just wallow in this well I made until the other half of me decides to throw the rope back down.
TLDR; me running away from my problems, and my problems meeting me at the corner.
