BTSMusicalFreak

None of you are going to read this I bet. I’m not feeling okay this week. School started and I have no friends, I really want to die, I’m completely sure I have anxiety, and I’m hating myself even more. The fact that someone in my class is trying to push me beyond my comfort zone makes the scenario worse. I was told it was unacceptable that I didn’t do my math homework and I almost broke down in the bathroom. I just don’t want to be apart of life. I’m probably going to delete this before anyone sees it but I just needed to write my feelings out. I’m sorry for writing about my problems. I’m sorry people have to try to care.

SoEun_Park

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@BTSMusicalFreak I read it. I read this too late. But I want to make sure I'm not late too stop it. Girl, talk to me about your problems. We're friends, remember?
          	  
          	  WHOEVER THAT IS NOT YOUR FRIEND IS SERIOUSLY MISSING OUT ON AN AMAZING PERSON CALLED YOU. YOU BETTER NOT BE THINKING ABOUT THOSE SUICIDAL SHIT, YA HEAR ME?!
          	  
          	  For the person that is pushing you, WELL THEY CAN GO FUCK THEMSELVES BEFORE I WOOP THEIR SORRY ASS, BECAUSE I'M NOT LETTING ANYONE FUCKING BULLY MY CRUSH.
          	  
          	  Ahem, anyways. You can talk to me about your feelings. I'm always open.
          	  
          	  AND WTF IS WRONG WITH THE PERSON THAT SAID IT WAS UNACCEPTABLE TO NOT DO YOUR HW?! DON'T THEY FUCKING KNOW THAT HW IS JUST PRACTICE? YOU DON'T NECESSARILY HAVE TO PRACTICE TO BECOME GOOD AT SOMETHING. AKDKSBE.
          	  
          	  Ok, I'm done with my stupid ass rant now, but the thing is, YOU'RE AN AMAZING PERSON. I LOVE YOU (inmorethanafriendwaybutasagirltogirlway), AND WHOEVER DOESN'T LIKE YOU CAN GO SHOVE THEIR HEADS UP INTO THEIR ASSES AND CUT OFF THEIR DICKS TO CHOKE THEMSELVES.
          	  
          	  *cough cough* I need to make this PG-13... oops.
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BTSMusicalFreak

None of you are going to read this I bet. I’m not feeling okay this week. School started and I have no friends, I really want to die, I’m completely sure I have anxiety, and I’m hating myself even more. The fact that someone in my class is trying to push me beyond my comfort zone makes the scenario worse. I was told it was unacceptable that I didn’t do my math homework and I almost broke down in the bathroom. I just don’t want to be apart of life. I’m probably going to delete this before anyone sees it but I just needed to write my feelings out. I’m sorry for writing about my problems. I’m sorry people have to try to care.

SoEun_Park

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@BTSMusicalFreak I read it. I read this too late. But I want to make sure I'm not late too stop it. Girl, talk to me about your problems. We're friends, remember?
            
            WHOEVER THAT IS NOT YOUR FRIEND IS SERIOUSLY MISSING OUT ON AN AMAZING PERSON CALLED YOU. YOU BETTER NOT BE THINKING ABOUT THOSE SUICIDAL SHIT, YA HEAR ME?!
            
            For the person that is pushing you, WELL THEY CAN GO FUCK THEMSELVES BEFORE I WOOP THEIR SORRY ASS, BECAUSE I'M NOT LETTING ANYONE FUCKING BULLY MY CRUSH.
            
            Ahem, anyways. You can talk to me about your feelings. I'm always open.
            
            AND WTF IS WRONG WITH THE PERSON THAT SAID IT WAS UNACCEPTABLE TO NOT DO YOUR HW?! DON'T THEY FUCKING KNOW THAT HW IS JUST PRACTICE? YOU DON'T NECESSARILY HAVE TO PRACTICE TO BECOME GOOD AT SOMETHING. AKDKSBE.
            
            Ok, I'm done with my stupid ass rant now, but the thing is, YOU'RE AN AMAZING PERSON. I LOVE YOU (inmorethanafriendwaybutasagirltogirlway), AND WHOEVER DOESN'T LIKE YOU CAN GO SHOVE THEIR HEADS UP INTO THEIR ASSES AND CUT OFF THEIR DICKS TO CHOKE THEMSELVES.
            
            *cough cough* I need to make this PG-13... oops.
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BTSMusicalFreak

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I need to rant. I’m being forced into something I don’t wanna do anymore and it hurts. I have art, I have flute, I have cooking, heck I have acting. And now someone wants me to do something I’m not interested in anymore because of something else I wanna do. Why? Because some person wants me to do something just because a FUCKING GUITAR was expensive. I can just keep it. But then again, why would you even bother reading this? Why do people even care that I wanna kill myself sometimes? Why does it matter?

Forest_of_Imagery

@BTSMusicalFreak  You're welcome.
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BTSMusicalFreak

Thank you. I’ve been needing this recently. A lot of times I just feel like I’m not good enough. Then I remember my friends. And now it just hasn’t been working as well. Thank so much, again.
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Forest_of_Imagery

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@BTSMusicalFreak If you don't want to do something, you need to flat out tell them no strings atached. "Dude, F-off. This isn't me." Because you make your own life. Why does it matter? Because your a beautiful ass person and people love you! I'm reading this because I like giving advice, a lot of people pm me about these kind of stuff. Because I like it when people are happy.  I wanna kill myself sometimes too but like the sociopathic narcissist I am. I usually think " This world isn't good enough for me. Should I end this?" Then I almost immediately think. "I haven't made a beneficial mark on the world yet. I have a lot to do. World, too bad for you, i ain't done yet." Then the world goes. "Oh shit." And I'm still here. This isn't a crappy suicide prevention post. This is a note from a high function sociopathic teen friend, who has been diagnosed with border line apatheia and bipolar diorder. (OTC of course.) I care.  And #YouWillBeFound.
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