Benelamay

I am trying to really figure out what I want to say right now... I know what I want to say but I don't know how to word it... 
          	
          	If you have been one of my followers for a while you will know that I dropped out of writing over a year ago, and I stopped posting on my profile a few months back. 
          	
          	I guess I have been trying to figure out who I actually am. It is getting closer to the end of the year now and I am still having problems. I have put off writing for this reason. How am I supposed to know who my characters are if I don't even know who I am?
          	
          	I just wanted to let you guys know that I have no intention of continuing writing The amazing... Electrostorm? and Haixiano Viper and my one shots. I just don't have any ideas for them and just thinking about them is causing me stress. I have no idea what is going to happen with them but they are not going to be updated anytime soon.
          	
          	I plan to come out with a new book, hopefully better quality. It might come out soon, or it might come out not for a while. 
          	
          	I just need time. 
          	
          	Anyone who has read this far, thank you for reading this. I hope to better improve. And all of you that dislike what I am doing now... then just unfollow me. I don't really care anymore.

TheresaRansomwood

It's good to be open about your feelings and feel free to take all the time you need :)
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i_fucked_ur_mum_

Don’t worry I’m beside you no matter what!
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yourhumblehost

@Benelamay dont worry doll I love and appreciate you no matter what you decide to do
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England_From_Hetalia

I know this isn’t relevant to literally anything, but ,
          I like how (in your bio) if Justin Bieber was pushed off a cliff, 96% of people would be upset, but if he jumped off a building only 95% of them would be upset
          Just saying, I have some questions for the people in that 1% difference lmao

KoalaNeko

@England_From_Hetalia they probably have preferences as to how they want him to die
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Benelamay

I am trying to really figure out what I want to say right now... I know what I want to say but I don't know how to word it... 
          
          If you have been one of my followers for a while you will know that I dropped out of writing over a year ago, and I stopped posting on my profile a few months back. 
          
          I guess I have been trying to figure out who I actually am. It is getting closer to the end of the year now and I am still having problems. I have put off writing for this reason. How am I supposed to know who my characters are if I don't even know who I am?
          
          I just wanted to let you guys know that I have no intention of continuing writing The amazing... Electrostorm? and Haixiano Viper and my one shots. I just don't have any ideas for them and just thinking about them is causing me stress. I have no idea what is going to happen with them but they are not going to be updated anytime soon.
          
          I plan to come out with a new book, hopefully better quality. It might come out soon, or it might come out not for a while. 
          
          I just need time. 
          
          Anyone who has read this far, thank you for reading this. I hope to better improve. And all of you that dislike what I am doing now... then just unfollow me. I don't really care anymore.

TheresaRansomwood

It's good to be open about your feelings and feel free to take all the time you need :)
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i_fucked_ur_mum_

Don’t worry I’m beside you no matter what!
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yourhumblehost

@Benelamay dont worry doll I love and appreciate you no matter what you decide to do
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Benelamay

I need your guys's help with deciding something. I know this may fall onto no person's eyes because it is how late it is.
          
          I found out today that one of my classmates has a website where he puts all of the people he hates on it. I am apparently on there. 
          
          What bothers me is the fact that I had no idea about it until today. There is a picture of me that I have never seen before. So that means that people are taking pictures of me without my permission. 
          
          I told my mom about this and she came back later after thinking for a while. She said that I should tell the principal because it counts as harassment. 
          
          I know that everyone will think I am petty if I tell the principle and think that I can't handle things.
          
          The website in general makes me feel so many different emotions. It makes me feel sad because someone feels this way about me. It makes me feel insecure because there are thing on the internet with me that I had no idea about. But it also makes me feel as if I will be looked down upon if they find out it was me.
          
          I need some advice for what to do. I don't have school for three days so I have time to decide. I would just really like your opinion on this.

Onecrazybish

I’m glad it you found out what really happened and I hope you have a good rest of your week:)
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Benelamay

@Onecrazybish @FlabbergastedBanana @doublebubblediscoqwn @SAMANTHA76225 @KaraBryant06 
            
            Everything is fine. The two people that I got the information from were trying to piss me off. They were my ex-best friend and her new best friend. My classmate found a picture of me and created a Harry Potter meme. That's all it was.
            
            That you all for the good advice though. 
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KaraB06

I'm not good at helping, but maybe tell a teacher if they could give a paper that has a link to the website it's on. Give it to one of your most trusted teachers. Ask them to give to to your counselor. Since 6th grade I've probably been to the counselor like 60 times already because of someone or something.
            
            I do hope that whatever you do works out. 
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Benelamay

Today is number one in my top ten worst birthdays I have ever had.
          
          Today is my birthday. I waited patiently all day for my friends to text me Happy Birthday.  I got nothing for a long time. Finally one of my friends tries to get my attention. I ask what she wants and she lists out a celebrity who's birthday is today. I send a meme that says that it is my birthday and leave to go take a shower.  When I come back two of my friends have told me a happy birthday. And one of them actually asks if I am joking. 
          
          I have no words...
          
          Worst birthday of my sixteen years of living.

Onecrazybish

Yay I’m glad
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cookeis1234

@Benelamay I have also been through there so I hope you have a wonderful birthday.
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Benelamay

It's 2:14 and I can't fall asleep... what is wrong with me?

Benelamay

@doublebubblediscoqwn Funny thing is that I fell asleep practically right after writing this.
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moodsloll

You’re sleep deprived, welcome to the club.
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Benelamay

this message may be offensive
I don't give two shits about school anymore!!!!
          I have a full front and back sheet of homework for science due tomorrow, I have a project that I have halfway done due tomorrow for Geography, I have to do translations for Romeo and Juliet due tomorrow, I have a Spelling and vocab ws due tomorrow, I have a quiz on the first act of Romeo and Juliet tomorrow, I have a spelling vocab quiz tomorrow, and to top it all off I have Pep Band tonight that is doing to take about two hours of my homework time.
          
          Fuck my life!!!!!!!!

CheetahNadder

@Benelamay Oh. That explains it.
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Benelamay

@Cheetahtail I haven't as far as I know. I may have over reacted a bit though. I just learned that my period started today.
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CheetahNadder

@Benelamay are you sure you haven't broken a mirror lately or something?
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Benelamay

Happy Valentine's Day
          
          After school I will be in my room, making no noise, and pretending I don't exist. 

The_ghost_of_you15

@Benelamay Happy Late Valentine's Day
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Captain_Quake

@Benelamay I think we're twinning right now
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