BlueberrorSansShip

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          	My dog is the world to me and I love her so much. I don't want to leave her. I love my friends so much and I want to spend time with them but I have t go to my horrible school to be around them. Most of my greatest friends are online anyway I guess...

ARandomCasualPerson

@BlueberrorSansShip same, most friends I know are online too. If you want to, you can DM me on Discord. I'll just need your Discord first (it may take a while for me to get back as I'm about to sleep at the time I'm typing) 
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BlueberrorSansShip

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          My dog is the world to me and I love her so much. I don't want to leave her. I love my friends so much and I want to spend time with them but I have t go to my horrible school to be around them. Most of my greatest friends are online anyway I guess...

ARandomCasualPerson

@BlueberrorSansShip same, most friends I know are online too. If you want to, you can DM me on Discord. I'll just need your Discord first (it may take a while for me to get back as I'm about to sleep at the time I'm typing) 
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BlueberrorSansShip

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          , and worst of all there is my fucking harasser. He sniffs my hair, he pulls my chair out, he stares at me and makes threatening gestures, he makes monkey noises, he makes cat noises, he hisses, he growls, he grabs people, he yells at the teachers, he yells at other students, he bangs on his desk and the wall, he burps out loud on purpose, he's constantly loudly snapping his fingers, one time he did it for 30 minutes and I started crying, he forces the class to conform to his wants and desires. I try to avoid him but he's always approching me. My ears and eyes are so damn sensitive that they hurt from every little noise and I can't help it.
          I wish I could be normal and have a normal teen life but I know I can't. I'm only 16 and I've gotten used to looking at 18+ content since I wasn't only 12. I can't even tell what's inappropriote or not. Kids around me watch adult shows like Hazbin Hotel, Helluva Boss, Family Guy, Velma, and Beastars. So it's normal right? I don't know...
          I'm not saying all this because I want attention. Im saying it because I don't know what to do anymore. I'm so scared and it hurts. I'm scared of dying, I'm scared of going to school, I'm scared of my teachers, and I'm scared of my classmates.

BlueberrorSansShip

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          Every school year it feels like there's another group of kids that want to make my life a living nightmare or are just so damn annoying and I'm too much of a spineless idiot to even try to ask them to stop. There was the kid that would call be butt disease and throw paper at me and act like he was sick because I "almost touched him", there was the kid who would try to hit me but when I hold my arms up to protect myself they "fall" and I get in trouble because "I pushed them!", there was that time where I was playing a game in class, I won when the teacher wasn't looking and when she liked back the entire class said I was out and of course the teacher believed them so I lost, that same teacher made me stay outside after recess for 30 minutes because I asked to go back inside early, there was the teacher who yelled at me because I was a 9 year old showing my friend an injury on my finger (The middle one, oh noooo), there IS the kid on the bus who would go "EEEEEEEH AHHHHH EEEERRRR!" the whole ride, there IS that 21 year old student that keeps walking up to me and my friend saying "I wuuuuv you" and on the bus he makes the whole bus shake and all the busrider does is laugh meanwhile I'm shrunk in my seat terrified as the guy keeps looking back at me, that same student makes my bus 20 minutes late every single day, there IS that student who gets everything he fuckin wants, he gets the rolly chair and rolls it around everywhere making an annoying noise and hogging it so no one else can use it, he gets to spread out all his stuff on his shared desk so there's no room for the other student's stuff, and worst of all he's constantly making noises and despite me and my grandma's desperate plea to the teacher to tell him to stop they refuse, he brings a radio and always has it on the horrid static and takes 10 minutes to put it all away.

BlueberrorSansShip

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          I've been holding off on posting this because I'm scared I'll get in trouble but at this point I don't care. I've been crying for an hour and 20 minutes because school is a fucking nightmare. I don't want to go. But if I stay home then I'll be behind on everything and my teachers will get mad at ME and it will be MY fault because I stayed home. I don't want to be here. But I don't wanna die, I don't wanna hurt myself because that scares me. I guess I should be glad my survival instincts are keeping me from doing that but I hate it. I wanna live but every moment I feel like I'm dying because. I'm fucking fat and ugly even though I barely eat. My body hurts when I try to get exercise and I feel like I'm "wasting time" when I'm not working on SOMETHING. I wanna do things. I wanna create but everything I make looks so damn ugly I can't even look at it. Everyone seems to hate me. My dog hates me and never wants to be around me unless her favorite person is out of the house, and even then it's only so he can look out the window. I'm scared she's gonna die too because she's also fat and panting and thirsty constantly I love her so much.

BlueberrorSansShip

Someone tell me I'm not the only one that ships Sans AUs x Blue instead of Sans AUs x Classic... Plz ;w;

BlueberrorSansShip

I don't et why Classic harems are so popular -~-
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SunnyClyde

@BlueberrorSansShip
            As a Blueberry fanatic, most of my ships are AU Sanses X Blue!
            :]
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