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Trigger warning I guess... Like anyone is reading this.
, and worst of all there is my fucking harasser. He sniffs my hair, he pulls my chair out, he stares at me and makes threatening gestures, he makes monkey noises, he makes cat noises, he hisses, he growls, he grabs people, he yells at the teachers, he yells at other students, he bangs on his desk and the wall, he burps out loud on purpose, he's constantly loudly snapping his fingers, one time he did it for 30 minutes and I started crying, he forces the class to conform to his wants and desires. I try to avoid him but he's always approching me. My ears and eyes are so damn sensitive that they hurt from every little noise and I can't help it.
I wish I could be normal and have a normal teen life but I know I can't. I'm only 16 and I've gotten used to looking at 18+ content since I wasn't only 12. I can't even tell what's inappropriote or not. Kids around me watch adult shows like Hazbin Hotel, Helluva Boss, Family Guy, Velma, and Beastars. So it's normal right? I don't know...
I'm not saying all this because I want attention. Im saying it because I don't know what to do anymore. I'm so scared and it hurts. I'm scared of dying, I'm scared of going to school, I'm scared of my teachers, and I'm scared of my classmates.