Borahae7Souls
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I just wanted to update you guys & let you know it may be a bit longer before I can update. Things arent going well & I'm not fairing any better. Despite how I seem, I'm not okay. I am no where near being even in the near vicinity of being okay. I am in the deepspace of not being okay. Everyday I struggle to hold myself together & everyday I fail. I am only still doing what little I am doing because I have something to take care of that doesn't judge me & doesn't make me feel like shit when I don't or can't make that 100% effort & even comforts me when I break down. Yeah, it's a stupid cat, but it's my BABY & the only thing that's held me together past couple of years. I have been struggling for so long, I don't remember a time when I wasn't. I don't remember a time when I was genuinely happy or felt excited for anything. Things that used to bring comfort to me when I struggled, no longer do, I have no desire to go anywhere or do anything, I will literally just go a few days without eating because I just dont have the desire to eat & every time I wake up from what little sleep I can get, my only thought is why. I am broken in more ways than I thought possible. I wonder if people actually knew how long I've been standing on that ledge, just waiting for the wind the shift just right to help me fall off, what would they say this time? Knowing how people are, probably the same things they've been saying, since you have to care about someone to care about whether they're gonna stick around or not. I'm needing to find a place to stay soon & having only been working at this new place for a month, I can't afford anything & people who said they'd help me, arent. I'm doing what I can, I promise. I'm sorry for being so disappointing. I don't wanna give this up... Please wait for me. Thank you.
JasnaMisic3333
@Borahae7Souls Hey, I hope that things are getting better for you. I'm so sorry for the situation that you're in and for the feelings that you feel. Such a selfless person that keeps apologizing to us who are waiting for updates, when you are struggling every day. Put yourself first, we will be waiting for you when you decide to come back. Please, don' t forget that you have people who love you, some of them are here... And waiting to hear from you in any form
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PoisedPen
Life is such a struggle for so many these past few years. Take all the time you need, we will be here when you are able and ready.
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ColaLolllipop
@ Borahae7Souls I hoped things would have improved for you by now and I'm really sorry to read that they haven't. Please don't give up and don't think that you're disappointing. I cannot imagine what your life is like or what you go through every day, but I know that you write beautifully and you were one of the first authors (if not the very first) that I started following when I joined Wattpad. Personally, I will wait until you feel you can continue with your work. I love "Lover boy" and I will always wait for its end and for your future works. But until then I will be happy to hear from you every once in a while, like you've been doing so far. We love fanfics but we also care for the authors' wellbeing. Keep fighting! I hope that things will start to change for the better for you.
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