You know the worst is that when someone compares you right? Yeah that’s it..It hurts like a damn hell when they compares you to your brother who is no more in this world.. they say, be like your brother, make your parents happy because your brother is not here, If your brother was here we won’t even care about you but we don’t have a choice now do we?..hurts right? Yeah..But what am I supposed to say when all I want is to bring him back and make myself disappear? I feel like a burden to everyone..My friends are taking advantage of me, betraying me, they are jealous of me, idk why..I just want someone who can understands me..My parents love me so much and now scared of losing me too..They also compared me to my brother when he was alive and now sometimes do too..And he did that too.But I know he Loves me too and I love him unconditionally..I didn’t show any emotions when they made fun of me. And they thought I don’t care about anything..But I felt like a sh*t who can do nothing. I have always bee a person who try to live without being a burden. But others always make me feel like a useless person. I always wish to bring back my brother..I just can’t stay without him..If he was here, he will always protect me at any cost..It was his words..That’s what he told my mom when he was in icu:( he told her to take care of me..Idk I just don’t know..I don’t feel good..I can’t stay without him:( he is the best brother. The best one..he was like a fallen angel..very intelligent,very handsome that I can’t even describe, he is so tall, have a beautiful smile, very kind..maybe he was too much good for this cruel world..all I do is crying everynight , wanting him to be with me..I’m sorry guys I ranted like this..I don’t have any other one to talk my feelings to..You guys are my safe place..This is where I can express my real feelings..
