Kris

Growing apart from what you love is tough as you grow up. That line hit me deep, like an arrow straight to my heart. I crave adult life, but it feels like it's boxing me in, leaving little space for who I truly am—a poet, musician, author, artist. That's the legacy I want to leave behind, a life filled with meaning and creativity. But in the hustle and bustle of daily life, I barely have time for my passions. The only quiet moments I get are at midnight, not because I'm busy, but because time slips away from me. Juggling being a student, a parent, and other responsibilities unrelated to my hobbies is exhausting. It's hard to keep up emotionally and physically when everything demands attention at once.
          
          
          I...Just... Can't... I'm so exhausted.
          
          
          This is the novel that I'm planning to write about sooner or later. The perspective of me as an adult. This is the life that I'm currently living in, except for being a parent of course. 
          
          
          
          
          

ehehehehw free to read my first ever FANTASY novel, matagal ako mag update dahil sobrang busy ng schedule ko at parang wala na'kong pahinga kaya ang update ko lang is kung kailan ako atakihin ng sipag, magulo kasi utak ko. I have tons of ideas na gustong gusto ko isulat. if only I could live my life the way that I wanted to. pero no biggie!  i will try my best to at least publish once a week. I published this book because I'm afraid that I will forget the whole plot again. →⁠(⁠°⁠ ⁠۝ ⁠°⁠)⁠┗  SORRY!!!! but again, read my novel until the end!!
          
          -The World of Immortals 

I'm currently working on my first ever fantasy novel. THIS IS THE FIRST TIME  I will ever write about fantasy. Before, I was not really a fan of fantasy, but just a few weeks ago before I went to bed I imagined all the things that my mind can imagine, I don't know really how that happened but I'm glad that the spark in me to write again came back. I don't want to lose this spark again, I just got up from a writer block and it was the most miserable thing that ever happened to me. I don't want to lose touch with my own characters, I love them. When I write, I feel like I'm creating a friend. When I came back from my last novel (that I no longer write atm) I felt like--I don't know them anymore, like, I forgot who they are, why I wrote them, what's their purpose. I started to read all my work from chapter one but the desire to write them again, I can't find it in me. Writing is like breathing for me. Having a writer block feels like I forgot how to breathe, I forgot how to live. 
          
          
          Glad! I found my will to continue my passion , my desire to write came back and that's important. I don't want to lose my spark again, I will not publish it, (my current work) not until I finish it. I don't want to work under pressure anymore. I want this book to be well written. That's all.
          
          
          
          -Casseeygreh
          
          
          (month of ending year)

October 27th.

I FOUND THE ANSWER!!! okieks tatapusin ko na 

I'm not sticking to one genre only, malawak yung imagination ko and I can't help it but to write down what I imagine or feel at the moment. Kaya iba't ibang genre talaga 'yan every publish ko ng book hehe. 

i publish SCU again, hindi na'ko nakakapag sulat kapag walang pressure. kailangan ko yan tapusin bago mag end ang year (⁠￣⁠ヘ⁠￣⁠;⁠)

i frickin want to start a book about feminism and how dickheaded the majority of men. but I just... don't know how to start. 

edi sorry kung hindi ako nag uupdate, ito na nga magsusulat na e! 

nakakatamad mag update be mas gusto ko pang humilata. mag susulat na lang ako sa panaginip hehe baboshh