CastielIsmyAngel1666

Hi Guys! I forgot I had an account here tbh. I haven't really written for any of these fandoms since I last posted. Should I finish anything I left Unfinished? Should I just leave them as is? 
          
          I have made a little home for myself on Archive of Our Own, and if you're into BTS, or Marvel, I've got some stuff on there you should check out! :) 
          
          Thank you for still being here after all this time! <3

I just realized that I would’ve known this v toxic person for 6 years (give or take a day or two), to the day, but they’ve been out of my life for about 2 now, and like, it’s really crazy. I spent 2.5-3 years controlled by someone, told what to wear, who to be, and they pressured me into things I wasn’t ready for. It broke me for so long, and then I met people along the way who’ve helped me heal, and move forward. Do I have regrets, yes, do I wish I still had some of the people whom have left my life, sure. I miss the fun times that I had with those people, but that’s it. I’ve found better and greater places. I’ve felt higher highest, after the lowest of lows. Have I recovered all the way? No, but I hope that one day I won’t have the same difficulties and struggles that I still face. I’m still trying to get myself together, but it’s been wild. Sometimes it feels easier to mellow in your misery, than to recover. And last note, just cause everything seems like it’s good, doesn’t mean someone’s not struggling. I’m someone who keeps it very close to the vest, and very rarely admits to struggling. But with the anonymous of my account, I can vent a little bit without people I know, knowing. It’s my way of letting it out, and dealing with what I’m feeling. The last few days have been great- but mentally I’ve just had it. I can’t wait to go home, to the home I’ve made for myself. 
          

So I apparently like to announce my love for Aerosmith while drunk off my butt. I don’t recall it to be honest but I apparently also told my friend I was going to smother him with his dog and he doesn’t have a dog so. All in all, I had a really good Sunday morning LOL I’ve spent all day hungover and throwing up so it’s been lit 

I’d like to note that all the girls who are acting ‘edgy’, ‘goth’, or any or the such, who bullied me in school for being different and being ‘emo’, you’re actual trash. I get that people learn from their mistakes some times, but when you act like you’ve been with the scene since ‘before it  was cool’, you kinda suck as a person. Y’all made me want to die because I couldn’t fit in with you and now you want to fit in with me. All I gotta say is see you in the pit. I’ve been here for years, and real sees real and we don’t fwu. They made me think I was ugly, I had no friends and they told me that no one would ever love me because I was a freak.  Well it’s 8 years later and well, I can’t look In a mirror, take snapchats W/ front camera without a filter distorting my face and I second guess my friends and they they care. Some days I can barely function, but it’s all good. They became better people and they’ve got the ig followers and everyone saying how beautiful they are and they get everything for free and they’re still popular. Their insides are rotten.  Maybe one day I’ll feel beautiful, but for now, I just exist waiting for my turn to shine and be beautiful. 

I’m in a foreign country and I don’t speak a word of the Language but I’ve picked up a few  words over the last week. Also learned how to get around the city. It’s been fun but I’m ready to go home soon. The friends I’ve made have been incredible 

I have not updated anything In a hot minute. Sorry about that! Between work and school and now the holidays, I've been a very busy bee! I plan to update what I can and finish what's not finished

Thanls for your votes on my book❤hope you liked it

Rip I found a dead spider in my laundry basket and I don't want to sleep in my room- I had put the stuff from the basket on my bed. (Basket full of not clothes but random stuff). I cleaned the basket but that means there's a spider in my room or at least there was and that means it was recent and that's not ok. Especially because I have random af bug bites. 

OKAY THE LAST EPISODE OF PRETTY LITTLE LIARS HAS ME JACKED UP. I DIDNT KNOW I WOULD FEEL THIS WAY. I STOPPED WATCHING IT FOR SO LONG BUT LIKE O M G I DONT KNOW HOW TO FEEL

Y'all its been the most busy two weeks. I've gone up north (three hours away) twice in two weeks, had my best friend staying with me, my dad had surgery, I came home, I start school on my birthday, and I got a cool opportunity to do some work for some very important people. So naturally I'm gonna spend the next week writing more stories and chapters, go into update frenzy and then go back to doing homework :(
          
          Love you all! Hope its not too hot out there (it was 107 yesterday and my car AC doesnt work sometimes)
          
          Have a good day! (: